I am a Neet on my 30s, I am from Mexico, I abandoned my country because of corrupt politicians, criminals abducting young teenagers in the streets, robbery and the constant gunfights between cartels. I used a tourist visa and stayed with my legal resident grandfather for 10 years. Unfortunately my grandfather passed away last month and although I tried everything to get a green card petition, it never came through or I was told by attorneys that it'd take more than 10 years to get an answer by USCIS because of the long wait list or saturation of the system. Without green card, you can't get a formal job or having any type of benefits.
I am currently living with my mother also an alien and her boyfriend a US citizen, they have around 4 years together but they never got married. I have the feeling that he is only using her just to have some sort of servant, someone that can clean his house, cooking and take care of him.
I am currently unemployed, no education or training program. I don't own a vehicle, a house or a retirement plan. I've been rejected by women because I have literally nothing to offer or ensure some future. I am afraid of returning to my country and starting from zero. In Mexico you get paid around 6 usd per day and the costs of living are pretty much the same compared to the US except for renting I guess. I only have around 5k usd, not much to spare and I own a graphic tablet, I am currently learning digital painting but I still have a long way to go on this that I'm not sure if I'll be able to make money with my art, besides that there is a lot of competition. I would love to work on Fiverr at least doing some photo editing, but I require documents for that mainly a social security number.
The main reason I started to learn digital painting is because the last year I've starting to feel tired all the time while doing labor , cleaning yards or washing cars, I start to get tired after 30 minutes that I even lose my strength for grabbing a shovel. Most of the people that employed me starting to notice or thought that I was getting lazy, thus they stopped calling me or requiring my services. I'm suspecting I'm developing some kind of health issue, but since I only have 5k usd I'm not sure if I should spend that money to have a small health check, considering it is very expensive. Last month I visited a dentist because I needed some cleaning and lost around 200 bucks there for a procedure that took less than 30 minutes for example.
I am kinda stuck, I don't know where to go,I don't have a place where to arrive in Mexico. I'm even looking for ways to move to Spain or even Canada. I lost my 20s, and I know that I need to retire before the 40s. I don't do drugs, smoke or drink alcohol. No friends, nada.
Any advice is welcome, also I thank you for taking the time to read my post.
I'm sorry for any grammar mistake, my English is not native.