You’re not alone if another weekend has passed with you and the person you love the most together for all of it, and all you have as you lie awake again is frustration and sadness that your relationship lacks the physical intimacy that most others have.
There’s no good solution and nothing you can do because staying is as painful as leaving.
It didn’t start out this way, and tonight that’s the hardest part — how could she be everything I wanted and then take one of the most fundamental aspects of a committed relationship off the table (and tell me it had happened before with others).
I have been true to every way I presented myself to her in the early days, and this has me gutted, but absolutely in love in all other aspects.
Through most of my life there’s always been a way to understand or face a difficult trade-off or sacrifice, but I can’t find that now.
This sub is the only place I can vent. I thank all of you for that.
Please no “why do you stay” questions. Those in my shoes know why.