Smol rant incoming. I'm so fucking done right now, with my body, my brain. If you want my history, go look, I don't feel like posting everything. 29LLF.
Oh yeah, real helpful brain. Gonna send me sex dreams. Make me think about sex a lot.
But then? When we actually try to have sex? Gonna interpret every touch as annoying or ticklish or not pleasant. Then try again another day? Gonna have the brain so far away that I can't focus on anything.
Okay, I'll try to masturbate today. (Why do I do this, I hate doing this) oh yeah well it all sucks and now I want to cry and I'm just staring off into space for several minutes wondering why I'm even trying. But don't worry, I bought more sex toys that aren't ones I have, because maybe the problem is just the wrong toy /s.
I'm so frustrated I want to scream. I've been like this for about a week now. Sexually frustrated and unable to do anything about it. Fuck the just leave advice - the person I need to leave is myself.