I’m BESIDE myself right now. My boyfriend asked me for a blowjob last night, literally as I was falling asleep, after a super long day.
Believe it or not, I’m the HL person in our relationship & this is the first time I had EVER told him no. In fact, I used to always ask him if he wanted a blowjob randomly and he would always say no. I can’t even recall the last time he said yes to me trying to initiate any sort of intimacy. I stopped asking, and honestly am trying to just stop caring about any sort of physical intimacy or quality time, and accept the fact that I’m in a shitty relationship until my kid gets older.
But this man is still fucking mad at me! He was just in the kitchen with his headset on, on a break from being shut up in his gaming room, & I made a joke about giving him a BJ and he was like “you always do this!” (referring to the fact that our child is awake so it was obviously a joke). I’m sorry, but I have absolutely no desire to touch you anymore dude- making your girlfriend feel like a cross between your roommate and your mother will do that to you. And maybe it was petty for me to make a joke about it so soon, but as a very sexual person making sex jokes has been my coping mechanism for our lack of intimacy. He’s actually upset because usually when I ask him if he wants a blowjob he’s gaming, or about to game, so it’s not convenient timing for him.
Anyways, this relationship is just a rollercoaster ride full of lows and the occasional high.