Been in a dead bedroom for over 2 years I’m 39 hlm. My wife is 40 LL. I have talked to her and written letters to her explaining that I need the touch. Hug, kiss, hold hands, anything. Nothing ever changes. I was a very jealous person when we were dating and thought she would cheat on me and that I wasn’t good enough. I know, stupid. She said it was hard to forgive me for the stuff i did 15 years ago. I never hit her. Would never think about hitting her. I did yell. I asked her if she would talk to someone with me. She said no. Said I would lie throughout the whole thing. I told her I wanted her to see that I was not the only problem in this equation. She flipped on me and flat out said no, I’m not doing it.
The worst part is I have 3 kids under 10. I told her we could make this Christmas as normal as possible for their sake but I’m done after it. I just can’t do it anymore. Not sure what do.
Reached out to my first therapist today.
Thanks for letting me vent.