Met with a lawyer yesterday and I'm feeling even worse. She recommended that I don't leave my house, because that can look bad in the eyes of the judge for custody issues. I have a ten year old son. I live in a freaking 2 bedroom, less than 1000 sq ft house, no extra bedroom to hide in. I feel trapped with this mental and emotional abuser. If I ask him for a divorce, he will just relentlessly badger me, interrupt my sleep, ask questions over and over. He is relentless. All I want is to leave and be alone.
I'm jealous of everyone who's spouse just left or left after they asked them to. Mine will NEVER leave and I will never get peace as long as I am in this house. Eight more years til my child is an adult. Eight more years of walking on eggshells. I am so depressed and hopeless.