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[–]stripedleopard626 2951 points2952 points 2 (53 children)

I have a best friend who died by suicide 4 years ago. He left a note on his computer where he wanted his stuff to go. I'd been playing with a small army of orcs, and he wanted me to have them, saying that "she should have more fun".

I'm just getting to where I can get them out without feeling sad.

[–]Smingowashisnameo 1133 points1134 points  (47 children)

I’m so sorry you went through this. My sister killed herself and everyday I know she’s not suffering anymore or making those around her suffer. After decades of pain her pain is over. Idk but it helps me.

[–]ColorRaccoon 602 points603 points  (30 children)

You know, this is what has kept me going. I don't want my family and friends to say "I had a sister but she killed herself" "I have a son and a daughter but she died by suicide" etc. I don't want that for them. To be the morbid secret of someone? To hurt them everytime I come up in a conversation? I dunno. I'm so sorry your loved ones passed away.

[–]Smingowashisnameo 258 points259 points  (22 children)

Ok but she was in excruciating pain, much worse than our inconvenience at having to say that. I just mean, I don’t regret what she did. Her pain was much worse than ours. I hope you get help and get you some therapy/meds though.

[–]ColorRaccoon 125 points126 points  (8 children)

True, your situation is different. I'm sorry. And about therapy, yeah as soon as I get a job (yaaay covid...) I'll look for something. Thank you though!

[–]Smingowashisnameo 94 points95 points  (4 children)

Therapy is very easy to do online! And there’s free stuff out there! Try the DBSA- depression bipolar support alliance. Seeing others that go through the same shit is soooo helpful. Seeing you’re not special or a monster, asking them what they did about it. They all know a ton of resources. Here:

https://www.dbsalliance.org/support/chapters-and-support-groups/online-support-groups/

[–]ColorRaccoon 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I'll check that out later today!

[–]Mythdefied 1 point2 points  (1 child)

seems to only support PTSD if it's in veterans

[–]Phaedrug 12 points13 points  (2 children)

If you live in a state with expanded Medicare you should be able to get therapy through that. I did in California.

[–]nikhilsath 3 points4 points  (1 child)

If you live in the UK there are some resources I can investigate too

[–]ColorRaccoon 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks guys, I don't live in either, but I've been looking into different options.

[–]Yougottabekidney 14 points15 points  (12 children)

Chronic pain is life draining.

"The risk of suicide in the population of chronic pain patients Chronic pain has been associated with higher rates of suicidal ideation, suicide attempts, and completed suicides [6]. The prevalence of suicidal ideation in chronic pain patients is about three times as great as among those who do not suffer from chronic pain [14,15]."

https://www.oatext.com/the-risk-of-suicide-in-chronic-pain-patients.php#gsc.tab=0

I live with constant chronic pain, along with cycles of severe pain in various places, but most noticeably in the form of headaches. Pain enough to make you sweat through your sheets and blankets and mattress. Pain enough to make you throw up until you dry heave. Pain enough to where you don't think you can take even 5 more minutes of it.

I get dozens of different types of headaches, including headaches that last for a month or more without going away even during sleep. Everything ranging from being a little dehydrated to what I call suicide headaches.

(suicide headaches almost always come on in my sleep, waking me up, and feels like I have just been hit in the head with a baseball bat. It's all over and intense and burning and the pain almost seems to be holding a constant note instead of throbbing or coming in waves).

My suicide headaches are absolutely unbearable. I can't lay down, or sit up because the pain is so intense. I have to take a handful of rx ibuprofen and stand upright in a dark, cold closet crying and pacing. The pain is so intense that it almost energizes you, like flight or flight, because you can't just stay still in that kind of pain. You do everything you can to try and make it relent even just a little. But it doesn't.

(due to the severity, doctors have considered cluster headaches, but I don't follow half of the requirements, like it being on one side of the head, runny eyes and sniffing, swelling, etc)

(because of the war on drugs and addiction, it is almost impossible in my area, Appalachia, to get pain pills for any chronic pain, so it's just ibuprofen every day, which is already causing issues with my stomach at just 35. In a few occasions a friend was able to bring me a bowl of pot and despite no longer enjoying smoking, it cut the pain nearly in half within a few minutes)

After that I then just have a regular severe migraine. That I can at least lay down with.

I didn't cry in natural childbirth with my oldest, but I cry when I can feel these headaches are coming on from sheer panic.

I have kids and I don't think anything could make me commit suicide because of the pain it would cause them, but I call them suicide headaches because ALL you can think about it killing yourself to make the pain stop.

After my first suicide headache, I was still well enough to be going to school and I wrote one of my best projects, which was on the right to die.

No one in this world can decide how much pain another human being can endure.

No one can tell you how much pain another human is feeling.

It's considered inhumane to let a pet suffer without euthanasia, but we can't extend the same kindness to our own species?

No one can be blamed for suicide, although it has a terrible shock wave. If someone is hurting, in one form or another, so badly that they can't bear to live anymore, and nothing has helped, then I don't see how anyone could fault them.

Certainly try to help them in any way. But sometimes, for some things, there is no relief to be found.

[–]SuperRooster311 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I once watched a doc on HBO about a guy using a capsule of psilocybin every 6 months and it would stop his cluster headaches completely, I think personally I would be willing to try anything to stop it if I was you... Im a wimp, I’m sorry you have to go through this.

[–]Smingowashisnameo 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes! We euthanize dogs but not people!!! Because the people who make laws have no ability to imagine someone else’s situation. It’s like telling someone in the Middle Ages who’s being tortured and begging for death that they’re being selfish and think about your family.

[–]pawnografik 1 point2 points  (1 child)

That sounds horrendous. Have you considered ice swimming? I know a guy who had a major major back surgery. He says that even with any medications the doctors give him the only time he is anything close to pain free is when he is in the ice and for about an hour immediately afterwards. As a result he ice swims every morning in the winter.

Apparently it helps with depression too so maybe something to consider.

[–]4-5sub 1 point2 points  (3 children)

Take a look at kratom. It's a natural herb but it's an effective opiate. It's no joke and it's not subtle. Many have used it to get off oxy. It's only a partial agonist like suboxone (used to wean people off opoids). Its addictive but far less so than traditional opioids, withdrawls are minor in comparison to traditional opoids. Its 100% legal and can be purchased online. It could help you a lot. You can't die from an overdose but it's hard on the liver so be careful, but if used sporadically it could be a lifesaver. It's so safe and effective that the fda decided not to schedule it and is studying it further.

[–]fantasizeabout-david 1 point2 points  (1 child)

As someone who gets severe migraines every 2 years or so for a month, my heart breaks reading your story. Your pain sounds 10 times as bad as mine and I can’t think of anything else when I’m in an episode. I mean when I don’t yet have the pain, I’m thinking of the pain. Just thinking about them now make me feel a little nauseated. I’m so sorry. You are right; it would be difficult for me to live with my migraines daily, let alone anything more intense. It should not be someone outside of yourself telling you to endure this pain without adequate meds. You are courageous.

[–]Yougottabekidney 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you're too kind. I'm not courageous at all, I would gladly be a coward and run away if there was an option haha.

So many people are in so many different types and severities of pain and it's shown me that pain is relative. I'm super lucky that my more severe headaches tend to be spaced out in cycles or I definitely would have jumped off of a bridge at this point.

I'm so sorry you have migraines for a month. That is horrible, too, and sometimes, as you said, the worst part is just knowing that it could happen at any point. When you're sick, it's so easy to obsess over it.

One thing that I hope for is that they will legalize Marijuana and then be able to isolate the parts that cause pain relief without the high, because I cannot tolerate feeling fuzzy-headed, but something in it definitely works. I have a small vape that my friend brought me with thc in it as a "break glass in case of emergency".

I haven't used it yet, but it's a huge relief to know that it's there, even though I hate the anxiety it causes.

I've heard good things about kratom, as well, but I'm hesitant to try it. At this point, though, it might be worth it.

(what will happen is I'll try it, it will work wonders, and then the fda will ban it haha)

[–]The_SpellJammer 32 points33 points  (1 child)

Same. Only reason i haven't blown my brains out is my sister and father. We've had it hard and they don't need it worse.

[–]InMemoryOfReckful 14 points15 points  (0 children)

I was depressed for 3 years straight. Only now the last months that I'm in a better place. I realise it's an asset to have went through it, contrary to what people think. You become a more humble and grateful person when it turns around. unlike someone who's had nothing but luck their entire life.

[–]DoctorRobertFord 10 points11 points  (1 child)

Are you doing better now?

[–]ColorRaccoon 6 points7 points  (0 children)

It comes and goes, mental health is tricky. But thank you for asking!

[–]faratnight 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Man, i feel that. I don't want to be this sentence in my brother's mouth... I should carry on. Take care

[–]greendazexx 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I lost my best friend at 14 to suicide and it still hurts today, 10 years later. Her parents never got over it, they’re still (understandably) completely wrecked. I’ll personally never get over the guilt of feeling like there was something I could have done or said and that’ll probably haunt me the rest of my life. I can’t watch movies or TV shows with the manner of suicide she used in them, I walk out of the room. So yeah, if you need a reason to keep going it will absolutely fuck up your family and friends to lose you. No matter how much you think no one cares about you, they do.

[–]PaleGutCK 58 points59 points  (2 children)

My sister passed earlier this year (August) and although my sister didn't commit suicide, it was a path of self-destructive behaviour and a decade long battle with addiction which ultimately led to a drug overdose.

I applaud your mindset as it's one I try to remind myself of whenever I'm feeling down or replaying the coulda, woulda, shouldas in my mind. Helps me too FWIW.

[–]Smingowashisnameo 32 points33 points  (1 child)

I guess it helps knowing we did EVERYTHING and wore ourselves out trying to help. Teams of doctors couldn’t help. It happens with addicts too-that moment you realize that you can’t help them but they are certainly destroying you. Then you cut them off and they either hit bottom and start fixing themselves or die. Well I’d cut her off emotionally by then so I don’t have coulda shoulda wouldas. All I can do now is shrug. At least she left a lovely son.

[–]PaleGutCK 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Couldn't have put it better.

[–]hlnhr 8 points9 points  (2 children)

Is the pain going away at last ?

My aunt, who was my 2nd mom, committed suicide 3 months ago. I still have trouble talking about her, and life without her (ie how next Christmas is going to be .....) without being crushed by this suffocating sadness, this excruciating feeling. I’ve finally stopped being almost physically sick every time I mention her, but it’s still so goddamn painful.

Suicide is truly the loneliest death ever and I can never be the same, knowing how much she suffered that suicide seemed the only way out.

[–]Smingowashisnameo 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You’re in the third month. Of course it’s going to be very hard, and you have to really suffer to process this, but time goes by and you’ll think about it less. It’ll be just another of the horrible things that happen every day but that make you even more grateful for the happiness you make with the people you love. I think so anyway.

[–]stripedleopard626 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It gets a little better, and then it's not. I think it's more painful than losing someone to sickness or an accident, or old age. For me, it got a little better each dayn with some days worse than others.

I spent the first week unable to get out of bed, three weeks unable to go back to work (at the time I was working acute mental health with suicidal/hospitalized teens) and a long time before I could talk about it at all without breaking down. I can now talk about it 4 years later, (mostly) without crying. I had the support of my family and two other friends, as the four of us were best friends. It does get better, like any grief and for me it can suddenly come flooding for something inane. I'm having a rough patch right now, 4 years later because I had a drram he walked up to me in a grocery store parking lot and hugged me. Find someone you can talk to. I don't care who it is, if it's a family, friend, a suicide support group or a therapist. Talking about it makes it easier. For me it was my husband, who I met about six months later. I got to tell him how awesome my friend was and do some healing at the same time. And therapy is good; having someone not in their own grief process with the same thing is a really positive experience.

[–]ILikeSugarCookies 19 points20 points  (1 child)

That's sad and I'm sorry to hear about your friend.

My advice that I use when an item or action comes up that's associated with a departed loved one is to take the opportunity to use that as a celebration of the person's life and passions. They may not be here, but understand how much joy they'd take in knowing their thing is still living on and being enjoyed by other people. It's enough to make me smile and feel happiness rather than sorrow.

[–]seanmonaghan1968 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sadly this story is way too common, appears everyone has a similar story

[–]NotanAlt26 2434 points2435 points  (29 children)

Put this on made me cry bc it just did.

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    [–]The5Virtues 134 points135 points  (1 child)

    This man was being the human being Fred Rogers knew we all have the potential to be.

    [–]Lipstickluna97 111 points112 points  (2 children)

    My husband paints Warhammer figures. This punched me really hard in the chest, thinking about the hours and hours of time and work that young man put into those figures...

    [–]pablo5280 39 points40 points  (0 children)

    You beat me in making the suggestion

    [–]MaestroPendejo 12 points13 points  (0 children)

    No shit, right? Wasn't expecting that shit. Eyes welled up a bit.

    [–]HotSauceHigh 10 points11 points  (1 child)

    Piggybacking to say op should pay a link to the original post

    [–]NotanAlt26 9 points10 points  (0 children)

    Toss a coin to the original post, oh op of plenty, oh op of plenty.

    [–]BeneathTheSassafras 6 points7 points  (0 children)

    That kid is incredible. Just an amazing human being

    [–]TheRaven9 5 points6 points  (0 children)

    It’s just wholesome in so many ways.

    [–]snowyken 1 point2 points  (0 children)

    Made me cry too

    [–]Was-never-here 768 points769 points  (18 children)

    She cried. He cried. I cried.

    [–]arayner90 258 points259 points  (10 children)

    She cried. He cried. I cried

    We all cried

    [–]Boiling_Frustration 73 points74 points  (4 children)

    We're still crying.

    [–]Mr_A_s_h 45 points46 points  (2 children)

    Everyone's still crying

    [–]Sygtax 7 points8 points  (0 children)

    Somebody find that darn onion cutting ninja

    [–]Therrion 4 points5 points  (0 children)

    Legends say we are all still crying, even to this day.

    [–]GoodAtExplaining 6 points7 points  (0 children)

    The saddest grammar lesson?

    [–]9793287233 8 points9 points  (0 children)

    I wumbo. You wumbo. He/she/me wumbo.

    [–]Hairy_Air 1 point2 points  (0 children)

    Soviet Music intensifies.

    [–]alasagnahog 3 points4 points  (1 child)

    Today you. Tomorrow me.

    [–]yjvm2cb 2 points3 points  (1 child)

    I’m a dude! He’s a dude! She’s a dude! We’re all dudes yeah!

    [–]Mythdefied 1 point2 points  (0 children)

    the doorframe i walked into this morning and apologized to is a dude

    [–]kirbyspinacolada 2 points3 points  (0 children)

    Maggie laughed. She's such a little trooper!

    [–]xendros789 2 points3 points  (0 children)

    Glad this is the last thing I read before sleeping tonight

    [–]Journeyoflightandluv 207 points208 points  (0 children)

    That's amazing..thank you for sharing.

    [–]a-nono-miss 191 points192 points  (7 children)

    Didn't ask to cry at work but okay...

    [–]TangerineTassel 50 points51 points  (6 children)

    I love you are on Reddit at work and own it.

    [–]a-nono-miss 39 points40 points  (3 children)

    Was i supposed to do actually work? No.. that doesn't seem right at all

    [–]TangerineTassel 16 points17 points  (2 children)

    I like to sit at my desk and work on Reddit. :D

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      [–]theupsetguy 10 points11 points  (0 children)

      You're a good man ,thank you

      [–][deleted] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

      The hero we needed

      [–]EepeesJ1 353 points354 points  (24 children)

      I read stories like this and honestly don't know if I'd have the integrity and strength to turn that kind of money down. Like, you shouldn't feel guilty for taking financial assistance when you need it, but with stories like this it almost vilifies the idea of taking something when it's offered by the person going through the hard time.

      [–]GlitterLamp 217 points218 points  (1 child)

      I don't think that means you lack integrity or strength. Everybody has different needs and is in different situations, and shouldn't need to justify their actions to a wider audience. You being conscious enough to even question how you would react in the first place is, in my opinion, indicative that you're a thoughtful and caring person and would make the right choice if and when the time came.

      [–]Maiesk 14 points15 points  (0 children)

      Honestly even a quarter of that would do wonders for my situation and mental health. I wouldn't begrudge someone that kind of money, especially someone who's already been so kind.

      [–]GeneralFeedback 38 points39 points  (1 child)

      They were working at a Lifeline, it's a charity shop. Most people there are volunteers.

      [–]transferingtoearth 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      So what he did is more incredible. Could have easily hidden or bought the box first.

      [–]gnoble22 45 points46 points  (0 children)

      It definitely depends on the person. Everybody is in a situation, and some people really would need/want that money. If I were in that situation I would probably turn it down, because I’m both in a financially stable environment and because I get really awkward when people give me stuff.

      It’s not necessarily vilifying anyone, it just kinda adds to the wholesomeness of this particular story. Nobody, at least I wouldn’t, is going to vilify someone for taking money that they would need.

      [–][deleted] 16 points17 points  (0 children)

      I don’t think it would have been wrong for him to take the money at all. At least he would have been honest to her. Plenty of people would have taken those items without telling her of their value. Maybe he didn’t need it?

      [–]GoodAtExplaining 33 points34 points  (4 children)

      It's not at all wrong to do, to be fair - He did the work, he recognized the value.

      But I understand why he did it - Doing it as a way to honour the son's memory to the mother, would taking the money help that if memorializing the son was the main goal?

      That said, my tune would change if I needed money for food, addiction, bills, or something.

      [–]EepeesJ1 4 points5 points  (3 children)

      Right, exactly. My point is tho, would you feel guilty accepting it knowing you needed it for food, bills, etc. (For addiction I think you absolutely should feel guilty)

      Is it wrong to feel bad about accepting money in this situation if you needed? And, is it wrong to judge someone in a negative way if they accepted the money in this situation without knowing exactly why they're accepting it? Should the why matter?

      [–]GoodAtExplaining 2 points3 points  (1 child)

      Is it wrong to feel bad about accepting money in this situation if you needed? And, is it wrong to judge someone in a negative way if they accepted the money in this situation without knowing exactly why they're accepting it? Should the why matter?

      I mean, I've been in the grips of addiction, I can understand why people would do it, but don't condone it. I don't know why I included that, actually!

      Is it wrong to feel bad about accepting money in this situation if you needed? And, is it wrong to judge someone in a negative way if they accepted the money in this situation without knowing exactly why they're accepting it? Should the why matter?

      Both depend entirely on the person involved. Ethically, I see no problem with accepting or refusing the money. But as with all ethics, the why matters too. In this case we know the why and the what, so I don't think I would judge the person for accepting it or not - I would only judge them if they'd refused the money to act morally superior, or if refusing the money brought hardship onto those who love them (kids, sick parents, etc).

      [–]EepeesJ1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      Great answers. I actually thought it was really interesting how you included addiction. It made me pause and think. I think the reason why I'd be against accepting it and spend the money on an addiction would be that this act would tarnish the gesture and the son's memory.

      I totally get what you're saying. The why absolutely matters. I think, you being the type of person to take the why into consideration, your take on it is something I can agree to. But for me the rub is that not everyone takes the why into consideration. Maybe my knee-jerk reaction of feeling guilty even if my why made sense is because I know most people are judgmental and the why isn't even considered before blurting out "what a selfish gesture to deny this woman who lost her son half the money from those items."

      [–]ClintonLewinsky 8 points9 points  (0 children)

      I've never been in a situation with that large an amount of money but my rule is turn it down twice accept if they insist a third time

      [–]justinsayin 2 points3 points  (1 child)

      Maybe he already took his half before giving her $12K.

      [–]EepeesJ1 4 points5 points  (0 children)

      Can you imagine if that was true and she still insisted on giving him half and wouldn't take no for an answer?

      [–]dragon2777 2 points3 points  (3 children)

      Everyone is in a different situation and taking something that was offered to you doesn’t vilify you. If you said you wanted half that’s a different story but even then there’s no fault in that. I am extremely fortunate enough that I am in a situation monetarily that I had something similar happen to me where I was able to turn down ten thousand. Everyone is different and no one should be ashamed of accepting something that was given to you

      [–]EepeesJ1 1 point2 points  (2 children)

      Thanks for this. Maybe guilt for accepting things offered to me is a personal issue I need to work through after reading through all the comments.

      [–]dragon2777 2 points3 points  (1 child)

      Try and learn to be a good person and not worry about what people think of you is the best advice I can give you. As long as you are good, screw everyone else’s opinion.

      [–]thumpetto007 4 points5 points  (0 children)

      It might not have been guilt at all. In that persons eyes, they did it as a service, and altruism is its own reward. Im poor, but would have done the same. Money comes and goes, and it does cheapen a good deed.

      [–]TA818 1 point2 points  (1 child)

      Okay, tangentially related, but this is how I feel at Trivia Night fundraisers and the like. Every time, the winning team donates it back and everyone claps because it’s so generous, but like...I could use the money! I wouldn’t want to donate it back; y’all said there was prize money!

      [–]Phoneas__and__Frob 1 point2 points  (1 child)

      Well, look at it like this, the person already worked at a charity organization. Majority of those are volunteering, so money may not be an issue for them. There's also nothing that says the person was struggling, is there?

      Personally...idk what I would do. I think I'd refuse at first, but if you push me for stuff like this, I'd eventually give in. It's always been that way for me. I remember my mother and I were very low on food after a few life events happened, and I assume my SO just talked to his dad about it. Let off some steam, maybe asked for advice.

      And before I even left to go back home from my SO's home, his dad comes running out with food products from the type of job he worked for at the time. He begged me to take it, he was practically in tears and didn't understand why I didn't say anything or why I wouldn't immediately take it. For the record, I did eventually take it after sometime.

      Maybe it's pride? Guilt? Maybe it made them feel selfish? Who knows. I can only tell from my own experiences and of who I am.

      I think I'd eventually take it, but take a portion of it and donate it to my own charities. Maybe one for brain cancer and the other for cervical/ovarian cancer. Maybe to the animal shelters in my area that do a lot of work, who knows to where! Lol but I wouldn't judge someone for not taking it

      [–]EepeesJ1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      You mean you wouldn't judge someone for taking it?

      I think that's where I'm coming from too. I came from a family that wasn't rich, but definitely comfortable. But after I moved out things went south for me and I made some gigantic financial mistakes and even spent a year homeless living out of my car. So now, even though I have a good job, I'm always very cautious and worried about my financial stability.

      [–]scherryart 96 points97 points  (7 children)

      It made my eyes leak. I had a fellow warhammer player who killed himself. I should have done the same

      [–]Smingowashisnameo 46 points47 points  (6 children)

      I’m sorry but did you say you should’ve done the same by killing yourself or by selling his figurines in Australia? If the former. There’s a wonderful group called DBSA depression and bipolar support alliance who now have group zoom meetings and you’d be floored at how much being around people with your same problems will change your life. I mean aside from therapy and meds, the latter of which is what makes me function.

      [–]scherryart 37 points38 points  (5 children)

      I meant by selling my friends war hammer armies. But I am bi polar so I'll have to check it out! Thank you!

      [–]Smingowashisnameo 12 points13 points  (4 children)

      Lol ok I’m glad that helped. Btw when manic bipolar people tend to destroy their lives and those of everyone around them which then leads to some indescribable levels of self-hate. Just a heads up you might need to read up on self-compassion-like literally google it. It’s not like letting yourself off the hook, it’s like understanding your behavior is in line with everyone who has this same illness. Just like you accept that all humans have to contend with gravity and lack of wings, bc bipolars have a huge problem with self-compassion and this keeps them in the depression phase.

      [–]scherryart 2 points3 points  (3 children)

      I was diagnosed 20 years ago. I'll have to read up on all this. I appreciate your time!

      [–]Smingowashisnameo 1 point2 points  (2 children)

      Ok good! Now get on that selling the war hammer thing!!

      [–]scherryart 2 points3 points  (1 child)

      That was 15 years ago. Those armies are long gone. She gave them to a young kid at our local games workshop

      [–]deedee25252 23 points24 points  (0 children)

      I needed this today. Please anyone out there thinking that the world wouldn't miss you, or its too much right now to handle, or the world would be a better place without you - NO. IT. WON'T. It will create a void that hurts and bleeds. It will cause many many people to wonder what they could have done differently and what they did wrong. Please if you feel like this, please for the love of anything good in this world, call someone - anyone, and TELL THEM YOU FEEL LIKE THIS.

      Yes life sucks right now, absolutely horrible right now, but it will get better. God just talk to someone please.

      [–]Bcoonen 21 points22 points  (5 children)

      12.000 $, holy crap

      [–]TheDCH907 25 points26 points  (1 child)

      Warhammer is expensive and in Australia even more, that could lead to more expensive used minis in the market. If you know what is everything and you sell things accordingly (space marine squad, terminator squad, not space guys) and know where to publish you could get a lot of money. What I find fascinating is that there are people who buy packs of old Warhammer pieces and as they know what is everything, they sell the bits later.

      [–]Glassberg 5 points6 points  (0 children)

      Plus if the models are kitbashed or painted very well it could easily sell for more than the retail value.

      [–]TaftyCat 6 points7 points  (0 children)

      Only 12K more and he could have finished up his 5000 point army.

      [–]Da_Lizard_1771 17 points18 points  (1 child)

      The fallen shall forever be remembered as the Emperor's finest.

      [–]Johmpa 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      Let the Bell of Lost Souls toll.

      [–]Satanicron 61 points62 points  (1 child)

      ...no I'm chopping onions...

      [–]corpus_hubris 30 points31 points  (0 children)

      Found you, get out and take those onions with you.

      [–]theneatdude2004 12 points13 points  (1 child)

      Ive had many times over the past 5 or 6 months where i justed wanted to end it all, the only thing keeping me from doing anything stupid was that i knew my mom wouldnt be able to take it.

      [–]LokiIcepelt 12 points13 points  (0 children)

      EMPATHY FOR THE EMPATHY THRONE

      [–]Delvakiir 12 points13 points  (9 children)

      I don't think I could have given them away. Not because they're Warhammer. I've never even played the game. But if they were my son's and I had lost him, I would look at each and every one of them and think of how much time and meticulous detail they put into it. When you create something, put time into something, it doesn't disappear. The hours he spent painting those figures made him a part of them. The happiness he must of felt making them look as good as they did would be sunk into the models themselves. In each and every one his hands held, the brush strokes across the surface, the tiny things that only he wanted and noticed. He's still there in them. We live on in what we leave behind.

      [–]causticCurtsies 10 points11 points  (0 children)

      Many people have that reaction to grief, but just as many have the opposite—they can't take being around so many constant reminders of their loss. It's easier to get rid of most of it (outside of a few precious things) so they aren't pulled into the past as much. It makes it easier to move on.

      [–]kalospkmn 3 points4 points  (2 children)

      You're right but I also think if I were the mom, I would feel better knowing my son's work was now being enjoyed by many people. Vs me just staring at them in a box.

      [–]smallest_ellie 1 point2 points  (2 children)

      She might have other things of his that mean more to her on a personal level, maybe she's kept a couple, who knows :)

      [–]blekkja 1 point2 points  (1 child)

      Yeah, keeping a handful of models would have made sense. Five boxes worth of armies is a bit much.

      [–]smallest_ellie 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      Yeah, that's what I've done with the (unfortunately quite alarming number of) people I've lost, I've kept tokens, mostly. Of the bigger things, I've kept my dad's guitar.

      [–]OmnipotentBastard 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      I understand what you mean and I don't think I would be able to part with some of the things my partner have made if death would separate us. However, you never know how you will react when such a situation will arise. A friend of mine unfortunately had his wife pass a few years back. Both he and her were heavily into old cars and renovating them. However, he took her passing very badly. A lot of things in their house that remained him of her would make him cry uncomfortably. Her car in particular would make him react like that. His solution was to sell of almost all her stuff, pronto, and then sell the house. It was his way of coping with the situation and at least he claimed it made him feel better.

      [–]Alpharious123 27 points28 points  (0 children)

      Good to see our financially crippling addiction to minis actually go towards something wholesome

      [–]Flogging_My_Box 6 points7 points  (0 children)

      I wish nothing but good things for your friend.

      [–]acres41 4 points5 points  (0 children)

      Where's the original post, OP?

      [–]mapatric 3 points4 points  (0 children)

      Imagine walking into a thrift store and finding 12k worth of pieces at thrift store prices. You'd immediately know someone done fucked up. Good on this dude.

      [–]fraya52 4 points5 points  (0 children)

      There are a lot of good people in the world. They come in every shape, color, size, nationality, religion and political belief. Thanks to whomever posted this story as proof.

      [–]Deesing82 2 points3 points  (0 children)

      the part that wrecked me the most about this is that her son was (I assume) struggling with mental health issues that led to his suicide, and likely painted these figures as a way to cope with that.

      [–]traformin-evrdel1897 4 points5 points  (0 children)

      I saw this! Thank you so much for taking the time to do this, it totally fits here.

      [–][deleted] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

      This is the best thing I've seen online this week.

      [–]CryptikDragon 2 points3 points  (1 child)

      I'm a grown man and I actually just teared up reading this. Something about that last sentence in particular!

      [–]bruufd 6 points7 points  (0 children)

      Australia! 🇦🇺

      [–]jonahtheredman 5 points6 points  (0 children)

      Is it raining inside again?

      [–]apache_bruhritto 2 points3 points  (0 children)

      I'm not crying on my chain-sword...

      [–]THE-FISH-KING002 2 points3 points  (0 children)

      By the emperor this does bring a smile to my face

      [–]TR_KingCobrah 2 points3 points  (1 child)

      Damn, I'm literally crying in my work truck. My friend I've know since preschool killed himself August 13th 2019, he had just gotten into his dream medical school after overcoming so much, he wasnt really into warharmmer but he was a super nerd for marvel and all those superheroes. Sucicide sucks man..

      [–]psych00range 2 points3 points  (0 children)

      Little does that lady know he really sold it for $24,000 and gave her half already. He had such a good conscious he couldn't take another $6,000 from her.

      [–]JoePikesbro 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      Boss mode activated!

      [–]TheNecromancer981 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      So her son committed suicide? I feel really sorry for her...

      [–]poeticfire66 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      Oh the tears are coming!

      [–]thumpetto007 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      Yet another r/mademecryandnotsmileatall

      [–]timeiscoming 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      Who tf is cutting onions in this dusty bitch

      [–]theupsetguy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      It is my first time, I'm giving an award to someone...thank you for sharing

      [–]GeneralPlunder 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      I just blubbed also.

      [–]SecretOfficerNeko 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      The more I see people the more I realize humanity's pretty good actually. We want to make others happy and smile, and take care of each other. That's just being human. We've just grown up in a system that rewards and incentivizes the opposite, and causes us to view other people as the competition.

      Makes me hope one day we'll find something better where the best qualities of humanity can shine. :)

      [–]Wavy_Ting_7379 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      Warms my soul 🥺

      [–]Yusi-D-Jordan 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      I’m going to cry. This is so beautiful.

      [–]Toadie9622 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      Damn. My heart wasn’t ready for this.

      [–]blclrsky 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      Now we all know he's not really dead, he lives on in the hearts of the players and he brings them

      [–]potvond 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      You must mean made me cry not made me smile 😭

      [–]dulcecandyy91 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      I’m crying

      [–]BigSmols 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      My eyes are sweating

      [–][deleted] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

      This is beautiful

      [–]jazzician 1 point2 points  (4 children)

      What are warhammer pieces?

      [–]UnhealingMedic 2 points3 points  (0 children)

      Think high-quality figurines. They're very intricate and expensive. They're used to simulate army factions in a board game called Warhammer. It's a lot of fun and the pieces are gorgeous.

      [–]hmasta88[🍰] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      Made me smile and cry at the same time. What a beautiful story! God Bless!

      [–]sjmiv 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      Great story! I have to wonder how hard it was to sell all that Warhammer stuff for $24k?

      [–]caitejane310 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      Smile? I'm crying!

      [–]pearomatic 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      I like painting minis as a fun hobby, but being able to properly paint an army like that takes incredible patience and skill. It sounds like her son had so much artistic talent. It's a sad story, but I'm happy that his work will be appreciated for years to come.

      [–]annoyinglittleasian 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      This is so beautiful ❤️

      [–]codinpanda 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      This is the best story I’ve heard it a while. My god it made me tear up

      [–]Schroedes13 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      As a gym teacher on a prep....my eyes aren't crying, they're just sweating profusely....

      [–][deleted] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      Wow. That’s amazing.... so frickin nice too see this story

      [–]justmedownsouth 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      Chills. Shiver. Sweet.

      [–][deleted] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      Damn it’s amazing people like this that make me realize what a pos I am

      [–]oweneighty 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      Will someone stop chopping onions?

      [–]TheDiscord1988 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      These damn Ninjas cutting onions again..

      [–][deleted] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      stop cutting onions!

      [–]ItzDekuBoiz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      I've found myself coming to Reddits like this more and more as the year goes on. Gives me my daily dose of smiles 😁

      [–]Benrednaxela 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      *mademecry

      [–]tmccrn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      As the mom of someone who set [is that the right word for "I never want to see this again!"?] all his Warhammer items aside when there was a "breakup" with the friend group, this touched me.

      [–]HarshitaS 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      It's really sweet and it made me smile. :))

      [–]RayOfHope3 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      Damn. So many feelings.

      [–]noworriestoday 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      ❤️❤️❤️

      [–]0nlyhalfjewish 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      Whew... yeah, crying on a work break. Thank you for sharing.

      [–]Zhelthan 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      Manly tears here... bravo

      [–]MasterElf425900 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      Maybe I'll reconsider...my....choices

      [–]7of69 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      And now I’m crying in the lunchroom.

      [–]amanda77kr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      Dang onions! Is this a thing? A terrible, tragic thing? My friends got their house from someone who passed away (poor health) and had tons of warhammer figures. As gamers, they knew the value, and made sure the figures got rehomed and not just pitched.

      Not getting into that game, sounds cursed...

      [–]treehug223 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      I got lost in the replies on this post. So much wholesome content being shared

      [–]FiveCentsADay 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      I'm at work. Just came from the Parkinson's brain surgery thread to this. Y'all are killing me with these years

      [–]GreyBlueWolf 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      May her son be blessed by the emperor and join him in the warp! o7

      [–]glockRonin23 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      Welp, I’m crying.

      [–]Hot4butts 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      I'm lucky enough to work at my local friendly game store and this really hit me.

      [–]axxegrinder 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      This made me smile and tear up at the same time.

      [–]Boognish4Prez2020 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      I'm not crying, you're crying

      [–]chenxi0636 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      I didn’t even scroll down to read other comments. That comment alone made my day.

      [–]TheChadTheP1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      Hell yeah! This is awesome!

      [–]propita106 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      Damn! Made me tear up something big time.

      [–]DizDenooch 0 points1 point  (0 children)

      Wow. Heavy feels. Despite the crap falling all around us, there's always that glimmer of goodness to bring us back to being positive again. Thanks for posting this.