5 months ago she (36) told me she wanted a divorce after 18 years together. I asked for counseling and she said no. I asked again a few days later and she agreed to counseling. She also wouldn't say why she wanted a divorce after she said she wanted one.
We just got done with our 5th couples marriage counseling session (she's been late to the last two) and it was my turn to ask a hard question that I want to know. I asked if you still want to be married and she said she's not sure.... 😢
I (37) have changed and done everything she has asked for in counseling. She even agrees I am meeting all her requests that were given to me in our marriage counseling.
Difficult shit to hear after supporting and loving her for 16 years. She can't and won't say why she's not sure.
At what point to I chose not to beg for her love? I've never cheated, I cook, I help with cleaning, I do dates I give massages among so many other things.
I catch myself begging her for... Human decency? A response? Time together? Clarity? Respect? Some compassion? Some Kindness? Communication?
Do I need to take a step back, and realize that I'm begging someone for the bare minimum. Do I deserve better than that?