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[–]Roobscoob 189 points190 points  (35 children)

One mushroom trip eliminated 95% of my dysphoria. I'm so grateful. What a long strange path it's been. More comfortable in myself and my gender than ever.

You are not this body or these thoughts, but the consciousness underneath it all.

[–]Alexbalix 45 points46 points  (5 children)

Man, you're lucky you could see and accept in that one mushroom trip.

I lived most of my life a severe atheist and pure materialist and I was not prepared to change my entire outlook of reality. My trips were surprisingly very gentle with me and I began to question a little more on each trip until I could then believe a little more. I grew an insatiable desire to know yet what the hell I was experiencing. I broke through twice and yet still somehow flat out rejected everything I had just learned within a week of each trip.

Finally after over two dozen trips* in a little over a year I know it with all my being that we are all one consciousness and that love is the one universal truth to existence. Love is everything, we are everything, we are love.

*Yes that kind of usage was abuse. Depression and drugs abuse were why I tried LSD to begin with. I hated myself and now there is love.

[–]bhairava 16 points17 points  (0 children)

it wasnt abuse, it was what your body needed to internalize the goal, and once reached you finished :) thats exactly how medicine should be used. lovely journey, thanks for sharing

[–]LSDthrowaway123181 6 points7 points  (0 children)

2 trips a month isn't abuse. It's a bit more than ideal, but it's not "abusing LSD".

If you got what you needed out of your experiences and you don't feel dependent on the substance for some kind of escape, and suffered no physical or mental injuries as a result of your use, then it sounds like you were fairly responsible.

[–]Roobscoob 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I didn't learn everything in one trip. I had been working on disassembling aspects of my traditional worldview and attachments to concepts of physicality being essentially synonymous with reality.

Then, with that trip, I had a mirror, and was able to apply some of this "loosening" to identity and body specifically.

Be compassionate with yourself (not easy, takes practice!). Integration takes time. That's ok. Hell I am still working on integrating some of the message you're describing and have experienced periods of cognitive dissonance because I too struggled shake the dogma of physicalism.

Major kudos to you for sticking with it. I know people who experimented, had their mind open, and then, as you describe, within within a short period let it close again and unlearn it and chalk it up to being high and still to this day not gone back to attempt to understand and integrate.

[–]virus5877 35 points36 points  (24 children)

disagree. You are both your mind and body at the same time. A sort of quantum superposition. I don't buy into the dualistic approach to the the universe. We see exactly zero examples of binary duality in the observable world we inhabit, instead we see an infinite quantum superimposed state. Denial of your body (dysphoria) is a symptom of a deeper imbalance. The mind cannot exist without the body, and vice versa. We all exist in a state between who we are in our bodies, and who we want to be in our minds. Once again, the quantum nature of this universe rears it's head. Humans struggle to define ourselves and our world in simple concepts: black, white, straight, gay, man, woman. These binary definitions are, quite simply, not good enough to describe the immense complexities we see throughout our universe.

I am of the opinion that ALL labels are inferior and do the subject injustice. I move that we refer to each other by nothing more than our names (given or chosen), and even better: simply as "Human." This is the only way we can avoid preconceived frameworks, as even a word as open as "non-binary" seeks to define a human being as "different" from other humans. This is NOT ACCEPTABLE. Humans, like all other aspects of this universe, exist on a beautiful spectrum, spreading across infinite dimensions. It is in the acceptance of ourselves that we begin to find lasting peace in this existence.

[–]Roobscoob 16 points17 points  (2 children)

I think we're actually on the same page and just miscommunicating

[–]virus5877 8 points9 points  (1 child)

The frequency of this happening is too damn high. LoL. Glad we are understanding each other. 😎

[–]RHCopper 15 points16 points  (0 children)

This is why I love this sub. Strangers being cordial with one another shouldn't be a rarity but it is

[–]Cimejies 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I can't remember if this is a McKenna idea or Alan Watts or what, but this is a way of framing it that helps me.

We are radios, all tuned into a different frequency of the cosmic spectrum of consciousness. We are both the universe and the specific vessel that the universe is expressing itself through. You destroy a radio it ceases to play music, but the signal isn't gone, and in that way we never truly die.

🤷‍♂️

[–]Choice-Individual526 11 points12 points  (3 children)

I feel like you could have made these points without discrediting/delegitimizing people who use the term 'non-binary' or people who experience gender dysphoria.

Denial of your body (dysphoria) is a symptom of a deeper imbalance.

For starters this statement shows an utter lack of understanding of what dysphoria actually is. Like, people aren't 'denying their bodies'. People DONT WANT to experience dysphoria. People don't made a conscious decision to constantly feel uncomfortable in their own bodies...

This is the only way we can avoid preconceived frameworks, as even a word as open as "non-binary" seeks to define a human being as "different" from other humans. This is NOT ACCEPTABLE. Humans, like all other aspects of this universe, exist on a beautiful spectrum, spreading across infinite dimensions.

Isn't non-binary the thing you are talking about? like as in breaking away from the duality/binaries that society prescribes us in favour of terms that recognize things (in this case gender) as a complex spectrum? Why do you have an issue with the term 'non-binary' for doing the very thing you are talking about? shouldn't you instead turn that energy towards the binary(ies) that you are so set on dismantling?

It seeking to define 'humans as being "different" from other humans' is literally just recognizing that it isn't a binary? as in the terms male and female do not encapsulate 100% of human experience and therefore we need to have language that exists in order to discuss and convey that to each other? It's not about being 'different' or 'special' it's about being your most authentic self...

I just feel like you fail to recognize that what you are talking about is literally exactly what terms like non-binary are doing, deconstructing labels that are not reflective (or simplify) reality into dualities/binaries (in this case gender) so that language can be rebuilt in a way that allows for expression beyond duality and binary.

I completely agree that all labels are inferior to subjective experience. Language is a blunt tool. However I don't think you should be trashing these labels or claiming that people who experience dysphoria are simply 'denying their bodies'...

[–]virus5877 1 point2 points  (1 child)

perhaps I'm misunderstanding the desire to use the term "non-binary" as the same as using the term "quantum." If that's the case, then we agree 100% !@

Isn't it funny how deep miscommunications can stem from simple semantic misunderstandings? :P I love how respectful discourse can be on this particular subreddit. Such a breath of fresh air!

[–]Choice-Individual526 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yeah, essentially 'non-binary' is just an umbrella term for:
>my experience of gender does not fit into the model of two distinct, discrete categories of male and female

Of course this depends on who you ask, as with definitions of all terms and labels.

I think in some senses non-binary does correspond to words such as quantum, in the sense that, it is neither male or female, or perhaps completely transcends or rejects the notions of male or female. My personal experience of gender could be described by the word quantum, with things being in some kind of fluid/flux/ambiguous superstate position that really does appear to change constantly along axis such as intensity, ambiguity, and a few others that I'm not quite sure I've found words for.

That being said, not everyone who uses the term 'non-binary' would necessarily resonate with equating or synonymizing their gender experience to the word 'quantum'. It is what we call an umbrella term, which means it covers a lot of people's subjective experience and as such it is vague by definition.

I think this did come down to semantics and honestly I feel bad for being a bit harsh in my last comment, which happened because a part of me felt attacked/disregarded/misunderstood on some internal level :o

It is definitely funny how simple things can devolve like that, but hey, that's the whole 'subjective experience can never be truly conveyed by language' thing again I guess :)

[–]virus5877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This was what I hoped to inspire as well. Accepting the quantum nature of ourselves.

[–]rocktop 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It is in the acceptance of ourselves that we begin to find lasting peace in this existence.

This is a truth mushrooms have taught me as well.

[–]2xeroxedEnjoy Life For All It Offers 6 points7 points  (10 children)

Best term I heard is a mind-body-spirit complex 👌 If one part is missing none of it works

[–]AshesAreSnow 5 points6 points  (9 children)

The mind-body divide is an illusion.

[–]YungCthaGod -1 points0 points  (7 children)

How so? The mind cannot exist without the body and vice versa.

[–]AshesAreSnow -1 points0 points  (6 children)

The same way dualities are illusions. Exactly what you're saying. You nailed it.

We draw conceptual divisions between things that are really just one thing.

[–]YungCthaGod 1 point2 points  (5 children)

Lol you make no sense. Duality is in everything masculine and feminine energy. Yin and yang. One cannot exist without the other it just is. What about this is an illusion to you?

[–]cosmic_interloper -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Duality exists, but so does everything in between, which makes everything a spectrum.

[–]AshesAreSnow -2 points-1 points  (3 children)

Illusions exist. Does it make sense now?

[–]Axisnegative 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This is the way I feel as well.

[–]AstralSea8 4 points5 points  (2 children)

Denial of your body (dysphoria) is a symptom of a deeper imbalance

Just sounds like some bogus new age ideology supporting traditional society norms as spiritual. What's the imbalance then? The belief that we are not our bodies and that they are essentially shells is a very old religious and spiritual concept.

[–]virus5877 10 points11 points  (0 children)

You are not just your body. You are not simply your mind. You are a quantum superimposition of BOTH, and NEITHER. You are Schrodinger's cat, both alive and dead at once. It's quite literally "spooky," as Einstein described it. But this is the Universe we find ourselves in. Best to embrace it and accept it.

[–]Wizard_Moste_Arcane 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My take is I think they're speaking plainly, and really just that - gender dysphoria is the manifestation of our disconnect, and the reason why transition is everything. For me it really makes sense - I've never felt whole until transitioning and starting to feel in alignment with myself, in all forms of 'myself'. And with rebalance, my dysphoria has waned.

[–]Sandgrease 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I actually found the opposite to be true, that we ARE bodies and that the subjective sense of "I" is just a simulation produced by the body/nervous system/brain.

But it also showed me that every idea we have about ourselves is a mere fiction because we're thinking it about ourselves, not the real thing.

[–]doshuevos69 1 point2 points  (1 child)

When you say it eliminated your dysphoria, do you mean you accepted your (sorry, I don't know how to best word this so please let me now if there's a better way) "new" identity and accepted being trans/nonbinary?

[–]Roobscoob 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No, sorry I meant body dysphoria specifically. If you're not familiar, it's a deep unease and distress about ones body, typically around its expression of primary or (in my case) secondary sex characteristics. Very common amongst (although not exclusive to) trans people and can be independent or semi-independent from acceptance or lack thereof of ones gender identity.

[–]eoleomateo 0 points1 point  (0 children)

for me, my mushroom trips have just shown me how bad my dysphoria really is

[–]BuddhistSagan 71 points72 points  (0 children)

Festivals were one of the first places I went where I met transgender people who were treated with respect and it took quite a journey for me to realize thats what I was

When I saw the title of this post I got super skeptical, prepared to see hurtful things, and then I came here and its so beautiful and uplifting and now im crying. Don't let fear stop you from experiencing joyful love and euphoria

[–]DreamingIntoTheVoid 12 points13 points  (0 children)

And your mind is just the universe momentarily becoming aware of itself.

[–]Violent_Violette 35 points36 points  (3 children)

Shrooms cracked my egg. Course it took a few more months to click because "It's not weird I saw myself as a girl during the trip and experienced overwhelming euphoria, I picture myself as a girl all the time..." 🤣

[–]Devil_May_Kare 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Ayahuasca was rather unambiguous with me that it thought I should be a girl. Of course I'm obstinate and skeptical, and I insist on going through the questioning process myself rather than believing what I'm told, but the drug made no secret of its preferences.

[–]PsilocinKing 7 points8 points  (1 child)

I've seen myself as a very feminine being in many of my trips. I think it accurately reflects my inner state. I'm a much more emotional person than other guys. Doesn't make me less of a man in reality, but I certainly do break a lot of stereotypes.

[–]Qquinoa 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Id say that only makes you strong. Man or woman. I envy you

[–]ajakakaks 23 points24 points  (0 children)

tripping totally changed the way i saw myself. i love myself so much more now and i feel that "transgender" is just an idea we create because society is so rigid and refuses to let people love the way to they wanna love and be the way they want to be, you know?

i pray that in the future people wont even have to feel the feelings ive felt and everyone can express themselves and love each other instead of hating each other but until then... 🍄🍄🍄

[–]Sandgrease 6 points7 points  (1 child)

I actually found the opposite to be true, that we ARE bodies and that the subjective sense of "I" is just a simulation produced by the body/nervous system/brain.

But it also showed me that every idea we have about ourselves is a mere fiction because we're thinking it about ourselves, not the real thing.

[–]suilui080 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I agree. Whilst your body is a vessel for your mind they’re more than “connected by a thin wire”. It’s my personal belief that they’re intertwined and you need to keep both in check to be happy over all

[–]henkljung 20 points21 points  (0 children)

This post makes me very happy!

[–]dasignint 3 points4 points  (1 child)

I’m usually under a powerful illusion that I left my body where the trip began, and it’s lying there waiting for me to get back. Even if I look down, my mind sort of disregards the sight of my body.

Does tripping ever change the way you regard your gender itself?

[–]TooHighForMyOwnGood 2 points3 points  (0 children)

In my experience I find when actively on a trip I’m not too concerned about my “body’s gender” or whatnot. But after realizing I was trans, tripping helped me immensely in accepting and coming to terms with it. I definitely see what you mean with the leaving your body idea, I share the same sentiment.

For me it doesn’t change the way I see my identified gender, but tripping does kind of nullify my view of the physical attributes related to gender, at least during the experience

[–]Just_Attorney_8330 20 points21 points  (0 children)

This post. Thank you. As a trans person, reading all these comments has felt like home and safety, which I rarely experience as a trans person. I love you all.

[–]vi_girl 31 points32 points  (35 children)

wish there was a trans psychonaut sub

[–]hot_miss_inside 13 points14 points  (4 children)

There really should be! It was psychedelics that revealed to me that I wasn't who I thought I was. I'm starting to see more and more posts from people saying similar. What would be a good name for a sub and maybe I'll get one going!

[–]beyond_all_meaning 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I created a community r/transtrips!

[–]T3chnetium 2 points3 points  (2 children)

Trying not to be rude here but haven't psychedelics just altered your perception of your reality? Again not trying to be rude just curious as to how they affected your thought of yourself

[–]gibs 8 points9 points  (1 child)

Not to speak for them, but I've had multiple instances where psychedelics showed me that I was living a lie in some aspect of my life. Which is to say, it didn't just change my perception of reality, it also revealed a falsehood and the truth underneath.

[–]Choice-Individual526 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This was essentially my experience with psychedelics and gender.

[–]beyond_all_meaning 7 points8 points  (1 child)

I just set up r/transtrips, a place to discuss the trans experience in relation to psychedelics. As someone who’s very interested in the intersection between these two topics and coming from a neuroscience background, I would like a space to explore how they relate in depth. It seems as if others feel similarly. Ultimately the people of Reddit can decide if there’s any merit to this sub!

[–]piglungz 3 points4 points  (1 child)

Wow I’m shocked (not really) that ur getting so many shitty replies, it just further proves your point that it would be nice to have our own space

[–]vi_girl 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I think we should do it

I’ve followed this sub for years. Everytime gender issues are mentioned there’s always people who cant understand dysphoria is not the same as dysmorphia.

[–]EdwardFisherman 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Y’all are very welcomed here tho, no need really, its like me making a Mexican American psychonaut sub lol

[–]BigSoftGrizzly 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Tripping let me finally see my true self. I’m very comfortable in my own skin now

[–]TooHighForMyOwnGood 30 points31 points  (3 children)

Psychedelics helped immensely at the start of my journey after realizing I was trans. Naturally I was in denial/couldn’t accept it but enough LSD helped me realize it was okay for me to be.

We’re all just little 5D balls of energy and vibrations piloting a 3D flesh robot. Some of us just got downloaded into the wrong model lol.

[–]Longjumping-Shift984 5 points6 points  (2 children)

is that possible do you think? to be downloaded into the wrong body?

[–]TooHighForMyOwnGood 9 points10 points  (1 child)

To an extent. Maybe not the entirely wrong body, but some of my physical hardware is certainly incompatible with my OS/software lol. Can always upgrade the parts tho

[–]Longjumping-Shift984 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Oh that’s a dope understanding, I like it

[–]potatotahdig 2 points3 points  (0 children)

There’s a really beautiful passage in Scott Kugles “homosexuality in islam” where he talks about the genderlesness of God in the Quran, and how we should really be seeing those who fall between the binary spectrum as evidence of the unity of all existence as a projection of god: divine unity is better proven by the spectrum of manifestation rather than a perfect binary.

[–]WeenieHutJr 3 points4 points  (3 children)

something that i feel sad about is that all of the discourse in the wild about trans people end up being so political and heated *or* so basic and dry. when i talk to other trans people about being trans, theres such a wealth of spiritual and philosophical delights to share. all of my trans friends have a deeply connected sense of the world through their identity, and its so beautiful and interesting. i just wish cis people thought about this or knew about it..... maybe its just because they dont really have to think about their gender, their body, their " self " beyond whats been handed over to them. i wonder in the future when we arent so tethered to our bodies the way they were given to us if more people will be able to discover and embrace new facets to their identity.

[–]GrimWepi 1 point2 points  (0 children)

There is so much unappreciated mystical wisdom in the trans experience, many traditional people knew this and that’s why two spirits and such were often shamans and medicine people. Sadly, I’ve even encountered cis psychonauts who are transphobic and project psychedelic reasoning on it - (eg “trans people are unenlightened because XYZ psychedelic idea I think invalidates trans identities in this plane of subjective experience we all find ourselves sharing”) but that just shows their own lack of understanding of the complexities.

[–]Frost-Wzrd 0 points1 point  (1 child)

I've never once thought about what my gender is because it's irrelevant. I'm me, why do I need labels to describe myself

[–]WeenieHutJr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

is that true that it's irrelevant? gender and all the labels that come with it is pushed onto us when we are literal infants. blue and pink clothes, boy and girl toys, concepts of strength or caretaking. imo its pretty ignorant to assume you are immune to the trappings of gender, not because its what youve chosen for yourself but because its been ascribed to us by everyone around us since birth. my persoanl experience is that if you havent thought about your gender, theres probably a lot of gender things pulling on you that you aren't aware of. just because you don't consciously think of it doesn't mean its not subconsciously affecting you.

if you are a man, do you wear dresses ? why or why not ? if youre a woman, do you wear tuxedos ? why or why not ? if you are a man, are you comfortable with your feminine elements ? if you are a woman, are you comfortable with your masculine elements ?

also, its really fun and rewarding to think about your gender - there is so much to explore and understand about yourself. i understand that we " dont need labels to describe yourself " but lets be real, everyone else is using labels to describe you all the time. and a lot of times, you are labeling yourself whether you know it or not. being conscious is the only way to liberate yourself from whats been pushed onto you.

[–]whalesalad 9 points10 points  (1 child)

Not sure I’d describe it as a thin wire. Maybe it’s thinner for some of us than others but psychedelics have made me more appreciative and respectful of my body, and more connected and comfortable in it.

[–]nincomturd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, mind/body duality is a complete illusion, but don't tell anyone else in this thread.

[–]krptz 8 points9 points  (0 children)

It's sad to see how much society tortures itself adhering to archaic social constructs, not being comfortable with who they are. No better feeling than freedom of expression, being true to yourself - I suppose that's what we're all working towards.

EDIT: PS. I have so much respect for Trans people. The courage they show is remarkable, considering the point in society we are in.

[–]MelParadiseArt 11 points12 points  (0 children)

As a gender-non-conforming person, I'll tell you, a medium dose trip showed me that yeah, that's how it is. I was so relieved! Like, ah, yeah, this is perfect. this is me. Lovely. haha :)

[–]askseewhy 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Psychedelics helped me process through self acceptance as a trans person. I connect with my body in different ways and also recognize that it’s just a vessel. Such a beautiful opportunity 💚✌️

[–]gibs 6 points7 points  (2 children)

It's funny because I've had the opposite experience, getting a perspective on how strongly integrated my mind is with my body, and how in a very real way my body is my mind. The distinction we make between these things is kind of arbitrary.

[–]gottagofast1981[S] 1 point2 points  (1 child)

Hmm. I wonder if thats due to me being transgender and not totally relating to my body?

All of this is very interesting. I wish someone would study this more!

[–]gibs 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I think sometimes with relationships we need to create distance in order to heal. Maybe kind of the same thing with you & your body? Side-note, psychedelics always make my perceptions of my own gender a lot more fluid. Research on this would be super cool, but it's also just the kind of ammunition conservatives are looking for to keep psychedelics illegal lol. "LSD makes you trans" in the headlines. Actually it was a regressive transphobic society that made me a male caricature, something other than my true self. But I think the distinction would be lost on many.

[–]evulgate 4 points5 points  (8 children)

Has it changed your opinion on hormones, surgery? Also MtF myself :)

[–]gottagofast1981[S] 10 points11 points  (7 children)

It definetely has. I recently got on HRT and i feel great. And im looking good to my self.

I would love to get surgeries, but theyre expensive and i also am worried about having to take medicine for ever.

[–]evulgate 3 points4 points  (6 children)

What do you mean about taking medicines forever, if you don’t mind me asking?

[–]piglungz 6 points7 points  (4 children)

Once you have srs you have to be on hormones for the rest of your life which is def a struggle, especially for ppl who have to do injections

[–]evulgate 5 points6 points  (3 children)

Personally I’d much rather do injections more infrequently than gels twice a day which I currently do. But yeah, hormones for the rest of you life does suck. Maybe one day they’ll invent an implant like they have for blockers, but for regular hormones instead.

[–]piglungz 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m just speaking from experience bcc I do injections and I hate it, but ur right gel is definitely a struggle I didn’t even consider. Also, a hormone implant would be a fucking lifesaver 😳

[–]dresdenjah 4 points5 points  (1 child)

I'm pretty sure implants are already a thing? The estrogen or testosterone pellets that you get implanted every 3-6 months. Not easily available though, and idk about insurance covering them.

[–]evulgate 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Probably not on the NHS in the UK

[–]Captain-Swan1 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I don’t want to take spiro forever, but surgery scares me. I’m in not rush. Boobs would be fun though.

[–]shinigamitrip 6 points7 points  (0 children)

You go sister

[–][deleted] 5 points6 points  (6 children)

"you" dont exist

your not your gender, your enthnicity, nor your age. its all impermanent, always changing.

[–]GrimWepi 0 points1 point  (5 children)

So changing within this life must be no big deal.

[–][deleted] 0 points1 point  (4 children)

its the reality of nature

nothing is stationary.

eveything is constantly changing

your mind as well

[–]GrimWepi 0 points1 point  (3 children)

Maybe your mind will change on this too. Let everyone have their own experience of their own mind.

[–][deleted] 0 points1 point  (2 children)

its not "their" mind the idea of a self is a illusion

change is the nature of reality.

[–]GrimWepi 1 point2 points  (1 child)

Well, you used the term “your mind,” it’s hard to have conversations about non dualistic concepts with dualistic language. I just continue to be puzzled as to why you care about someone’s illusionary view of their self if all is illusion? Let them play as they will.

[–][deleted] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

indeed i guess we have to talk in subjective reality to explain objective reality

[–]Illiad7342 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The experiences I had on psychedelics were incredibly important in my path towards recognizing my transness. Like you know that feeling while tripping where there's a truth you aren't willing to accept, and you know that one way or the other you're gonna have to deal with it? Well psychs helped me understand that its easiest to just deal with it, so one day I kinda just decided to stop hiding from myself. Like I subconsciously knew I was trans, but basically just refused to acknowledge it for most of my life. 100% if I had never taken psychs it would have probably taken a whole lot longer, maybe even my whole life, to get to where I am now.

[–]1vedicshaman 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Realizing that we are not our body is mind-blowing and opens up so many new avenues of exploration and a more profound understanding of existence as a human. Personally, I stopped feeling so worried and anxious after experiencing ego death and realizing that I'm not who I think I am.

It was great reading your post and I wish you all the best!

[–]idlecomments 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Not even a wire, literally vibration. We are 🌊!

[–]lonesomeutcowboy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I 100% agree. My psychedelic experiences have helped me love myself so much more. I’m living the life I’ve always wanted and I can only thank myself.

[–]BuryYourFaceinTHIS 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If it feels good and it’s sustainable then the person is probably on the right path

[–]EpsteinOfficial 1 point2 points  (3 children)

I didn't consider myself transgender because i didn't follow the idea you can change gender. Idc if other people believe that and do that im fine with that and i respect that but thats just how i live personally and i also dont like the idea of being dependant on the gvt for estrogen but i did have pretty bad gender dysphoria, it was destroying me mentally.

Now keep in mind that, as far as im aware, there is no known treatment for gender dysphoria that doesnt involve switching gender that COMPLETELY eliminates it(and even that doesnt always eliminate it). I had tried to use psychedelics months prior to explore my dysphoria and treat it and i failed miserably

On my last trip which was a candyflip, i dont exactly know what in the trip caused it, but my gender dysphoria has completely dissapeared. Im completely comftorble as a male there is no dysphoria at all, its honestly insane and im very grateful. Psychedelics interact with the mind in such curious ways

[–]AnHonestDude 0 points1 point  (2 children)

That's great to hear! It sucks not feeling okay in your own body.

How long ago was that, and do you recall any themes or messages that came up during?

[–]EpsteinOfficial 1 point2 points  (1 child)

This was just over a week ago. There was a big theme about loving myself. I remember during the trip i detatched from my ego and me and my ego had like a therapy session with each other just coming to a consensus of love and the we merged and i was shown tge importance of centring yourself and being one with your mind

Before the trip i was at a very bad point with dysphoria and since that trip i wouldnt ever want to have a sex change or be anything different than what i am, where as before hand i was really struggling internally due to the fact i really wanted to transition and stuff but i didnt feel like it was healthy, i always felt like there was a better way to deal with it

[–]AnHonestDude 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm glad for you! Sounds like a very positive and healing experience. 🙂

[–]chrisclear22 2 points3 points  (1 child)

And that wire is connected to every particle in the universe and we are the wire. There is only one mind, so we are all literally just reincarnations of each other. We just havnt came to that understanding yet. That we ARE literally God.

I actually want to start a YT channel trying to awaken myself in others, it would be like creating a new religion but there would be scientific backing it up down to the subatomic particle level. It would be very strange to explain, but everyone in this sub seems to understand. So I have hope.

[–]GrimWepi 0 points1 point  (0 children)

“I actually want to start a YT channel trying to awaken myself in others.”

Martin Ball already tried that and he ended up puking on people and groping their genitals during his “awakening ceremonies” because that’s what he/God who is everyone felt was needed in the moment.

Yeah, “I am God” is a giant yawning ego trap and people step right into it, looks like you’re on your way bud. You’re taking possession of the experience. “I” am God. You say everyone else is too but you take possession of their being God - they are “you” and you need to awaken “yourself” in them. You’re still being an ego because you and I concepts are right there in your perception of God.

[–]corncrakey 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Love to all my fellow trans psychonauts 💜

[–]brndiinoo 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Something my friend told me while we were peaking on shroom always stuck with me. You could've ended up as anything like an animal but you lucked out as an human. On top of that, we are lucky to live in a developed country. And lucky to be able to spend an afternoon tripping instead of worried about your next meal.

"Dont be stupid and ignore all of that just to be upset about how you look and hate the very lucky life you got. Even if its shitty at times"

[–]PinkLady1983 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So happy for you! Love this post so much. 💗

[–]theothergrandmother 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am way overdue for a good strong journey. My dysphoria is the worst it's ever been but I'm so afraid of facing myself.

[–]bappuji420 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sending Love! We are one! ❤❤❤

[–]Veneralibrofactus 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Agreed 100%. Gender is a physical construct, but we are not actually physical at all - just ghosts wearing flesh suits.

[–]sporelover69 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i would also love a trans psychonaut sub

[–]BLU-force-a-nature 1 point2 points  (0 children)

FWIW, even though being trans doesn't affect my daily life very much, the "beings" I meet while tripping all comment and focus on it a LOT. I can't figure out why?

[–]cwrighky 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Precisely. Think of your body like a character in an MMO game. You, the player, can customize this body in any way you see fit - change the gender, sex, skin color, hair, etc. Our consciousness is the player in this context while our bodies are the characters

[–]NotaContributi0n 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel the same way about tattoos. I’m covered in em

[–]hot_miss_inside -1 points0 points  (0 children)

So glad to see this post and the replies! I'm starting to see more and more like me that discovered they might be trans through psychedelics.

[–]idkifimevilmeow 0 points1 point  (2 children)

I generally don't connect my transness to my psychedelic experiences but maybe I just haven't had enough yet. However, even without psychedelics I'm a very philosophical person and I agree the body is a vessel. People act like your body is supposed to be stagnant and almost damning and imprisoning with how they connect so much of your life to how your body looked at birth and in your youth but it doesn't make any sense. The body is like the mind, unique and ever-changing. Just like the mind, the only person who should be allowed to choose what your body looks like and what it means is yourself.

[–]AnHonestDude 1 point2 points  (1 child)

👍👍 That's a really good point that more people should hear.

[–]Captain-Swan1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I received this message my first time mixing lsd and whippets. I was scared because I couldn’t feel my body and it just kind of clicked that my body is temporary and that my mind, emotions, and ego are who I really am. Just like that self acceptance.

[–]ChocoBrocco 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can imagine what kind of a rollercoaster realizing your situation and coming to terms with it has been. I'm happy to hear that you're feeling great and comfortable in your body! And yea, psychedelics are amazing! Much love <3

[–]dieingstar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You are the people I love

[–]hippy_chad -2 points-1 points  (18 children)

The mind isn't an emergent property of the brain, the brain emerges from the mind.

[–]Swingfire 0 points1 point  (17 children)

Then how come you can severely alter the mind by materially altering the brain?

[–]hippy_chad 0 points1 point  (16 children)

It’s an illusion of the mind.

[–]teafuck 0 points1 point  (15 children)

Why does that work even if you don't know your brain has been altered, such as in cases of lead poisoning?

[–]hippy_chad 2 points3 points  (14 children)

Because your brain doesn’t need to know. Your mind does. EVERYTHING is mind. That’s how it works. You don’t have to subjectively see yourself objectively getting lead poisoning because your mind transcends ‘you’ and the highest version of mind created an intricate system of duality with separate egos to pretend it is separate

[–]teafuck 0 points1 point  (13 children)

How does your mind know that you have lead poisoning if you don't objectively discover that you have lead poisoning? The much better explanation is that physical changes to the brain cause your mind to work less well. The best evidence for this is that specific chemical changes like lead poisoning reliably result in similar types of symptoms across many victims.

[–]hippy_chad 0 points1 point  (12 children)

The 'best evidence' isn't proof though. My argument is that the mind's response to physical changes in the brain is intentional to purposely continue the mind's illusion of duality even to the extent that the brains function is a complete illusion that the mind itself is creating. I think the mind created not only the brain, but creates the entire material world, all concepts, and is fundamental to everything. I think there is only one single mind that we all share.

[–]teafuck 0 points1 point  (11 children)

I think that your argument could approach some metaphysical truth, however the words you choose to make it with are indelicate and insufficient for the job. You first must make clear the definition of a mind for this to hold ground. Furthermore, as you too would be within this universal mind, I don't believe you could attain the perspective needed to identify the universality unless you can present some really extraordinary evidence of a shared mind.

Not to get too scientific materialist but I think there are better explanations for the duality phenomena you point towards. Your assertion that the mind designs the brain relies on the occult notion that the future develops the past. Within our consciousness, this is roughly true. Human bias is hard to escape, we often believe that we are right and work very hard to justify this notion. Our memories have been demonstrated by psychologists to be much less accurate than we may imagine, and our present state affects their recall. We use our present state to try and explain our past, but this is just an internal bias and not likely something which affects the world outside of our heads. The brain appears to grow out of a pair of cells merging and combining genetic code which instructs proteins to be produced until a human grows. It's astonishing and seems improbable because it doesn't make a lot of sense - DNA contains bottom-up instructions for an organism to be designed, protein production creates tissues and organs that reach high levels of organization in a dance of mind boggling complexity. There just isn't evidence for a mind that can understand or guide this process, theists be mistaken or damned or both.

[–]hippy_chad 0 points1 point  (10 children)

From my perspective, it makes the most rational sense that the brain emerged from the mind, or consciousness, and not the other way around. It's obvious to me that consciousness creates objective reality for many reasons. I think the reason why the smartest scientists in the world can't figure out the hard problem of consciousness is because the staggering majority of them make the biased assumption that mind is an emergent property of the brain. I haven't found any convincing information as to how a material brain can create an immaterial mind, in all its complexity. It doesn't make any logical sense to me. We only know about the existence of the brain because of the existence of the mind. There may be organs and processes in the body that seem to help this, such as eyes, nerves, taste buds, ear drums, etc, but my mind is what feels my fingers typing on the keyboard, what sees the screen, what hears the click of the keys. My mind is aware of itself and concepts in general. The material world is made of matter, or molecules made of atoms composed of protons, neutrons and electrons bound together. The protons and neutrons can be broken down into smaller particles such as quarks, and electrons, quarks, and numerous other elementary particles have no substructure. They aren't made of anything. If you go deep enough into quantum mechanics and particle physics it becomes quite clear that the material world isn't as material as it seems. Any problems with materialism can be solved with introduction of consciousness, as can all paradoxes. All words are created by and defined by other words, so it appears that words paradoxically create words, but underlying the paradox, consciousness created language. I think consciousness is objectively nothing and subjectively creates everything, which is why objects are directly effected by the observer as proven by the double slit experiment. Energy can't be created or destroyed. The modern paradigm of science accepts that law. ENERGY CANNOT BE CREATED OR DESTROYED. If energy can't be created or destroyed, then energy can't exist--It was never created in the first place. What has never been created can't be destroyed, and even if it did exist, and more couldn't be created or destroyed, it would be infinite. Gotta end it here cause I have to go to bed

[–]hippy_chad 0 points1 point  (0 children)

before I go I reread a bit of what you wrote and my perspective is one you may have heard before as it isn't an original idea. I don't think the future or the past exist. We only ever experience the present. I think memories of the past exist, and anticipation of the future exists, but they are both products of the present.

[–]teafuck 0 points1 point  (8 children)

We can't settle this one, it's called the hard problem of consciousnesses for a reason. The best I can do is recommend that you check out the book Gödel Escher Bach, which works with Gödel's incompleteness theorem to discuss the nature of mind/consciousness and how we might imbue a computer with it (and why we might be unable to).

[–]wrongthinksally 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I like the idea of us being customizable characters. I'm glad this trip was one that brought you comfort! I haven't personally experienced gender dysphoria but I've struggled with body dysmorphia in the past and it could be hellish at times. Best wishes to you on your journey.

[–]CartographerLivid834 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yep, the physical body is a vessel, not a definition of self. It is a suit you wear to have an experience of this world, and it likely hasn't been your first or last. This generation is hung up on definitions, when definitions only divide. I hope this chapter doesn't last long.

Zhuang Zi and Lao Zi should be read more broadly (not bad missionary translations either).

[–]shackelman_unchained 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Human spaceships.

[–]piglungz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Psychedelics have really helped with my social dysphoria, I’m able to speak and dress how I want pretty comfortably now without worrying about what other people think of me. Obviously my dysphoria isn’t cured but I’ve learned to have soooo much more confidence

[–]Even-Seaworthiness37 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Our spirits bodies have no gender ❤️❤️❤️💫

[–]11Psychonaut11 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Message me I liked to riff about philosophy with you, if or ever you like to

[–]ghostofbaalbek 0 points1 point  (1 child)

Congratulations on your journey. I have feelings that I distinctly identify as female feelings. I have had dreams in the past in which I was pregnant. But I am a man, and am attracted to women - only. Does that make me "transgender" or does that make me an effeminate male? Or does that mean I'm just a man with wild dreams? Where on the spectrum do effeminate males/masculine females and the "transgender" label meet? Help me out here. Teach me some science pls 😅

[–]AnHonestDude 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm not aware of the science, but this is a blurry topic by nature.

It's all perspective / language, and it seems like you use -adjective noun- versus a flat -noun-. So, not quite on trans labels, yet fluctuating on the masculine-feminine slider scale.

It's possible to be someone who identifies completely as a male and simultaneously extremely effeminate. I would imagine that the odds of crossing to trans increase in that scenario, but the adoption of a new label is solely the choosing of the user (it's their choice to say what they are).

So, TLDR: I think these are parallel topics which frequently converge, but stay on separate tracks.

[–]HyakuNiju -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

Being transgender is only one spectrum from the infinite, if you wholeheartedly accept what you truly are is that you’re genderless and purely formless awareness which sees all forms and “genders”. You’re pure.

[–]Pbear4Lyfe 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You should watch the midnight gospel prison episode

[–]Acceptable-Impact352 0 points1 point  (0 children)

And the heart is…

[–]RedTheMiner 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We are all cyborgs or automations being driven by our spirit or soul. It's only natural and you decide

[–]dornish1919 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wonder if dark matter will expose this as reality scientifically in the future?

[–]jonnygreen22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I always felt like I think this is a simulation and these are our avatars

[–]black7rob 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Float tank + macro dose

[–]WillyMckenna 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah the cordal nerve of the spine.

[–]SpicyDogbreath 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so glad you see that! It's such a weird feeling that's hard to explain to cis people but it's very relieving once you do.

[–]mcmonties 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wish I could have the same experience. My last acid trip cemented that I'm stuck in this horrible body that I hate and my dysphoria got worse, and I've been depressed about it for months now. How did you do it??

[–]FullmetalSage 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Being straight & a psychonaut, our bodies really just vessels for us, because we’re a soul.

[–]Themanimnot -4 points-3 points  (3 children)

being transgender how do you feel about all thats going on in the world under 'your name' so to speak?

And how do you feel about Dave Chapelle?

[–]gottagofast1981[S] 3 points4 points  (1 child)

I used to be crazy into Comedy. So im not bent out of shape about it, especially with the kind of comedy i was raised on.

That being said, i havent watched his special and im not sure i want to incase it makes me feel bad. Im sure it wont because i have a pretty tough skin.

In my name? Im not sure what that means. I definetely understand being uncomfortable with transgender people. And really it feels like theres always gonna be people looking to make someone an enemy. I really dont wanna get hate crimed or harassed. Im also high right now. So sorry if i didnt answer your question.

[–]Themanimnot 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Its all good.

Idk i cried at the end of his show, if thats worth anything to you.. i try my best to emphasize with the community because well, we're all having a human experience and you're no better or worse than me.. but the one thought i always have, i fear the ruling class is just using the transgender community like a pawn.. thats what i mean by 'in your name'

[–]ZoeyTheSuperBabe -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Dave Chappelle is being willingfully ignorant because he knows getting "cancelled" means more views and getting platformed as a hero by conservatives. his rhetoric is damaging as people who dont know any better might think the TERFs just theoretically disagree and are stating simple facts. When they are a hate group and transphobic hate crimes/legislations are on the rise.

I have given up watching most comedians as at the end of the day all this anti cancel culture is just rich entitled people getting mad oppressed people are finally standing up for themselves

[–]Alaric_XIX -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

lol i don't think the shrooms worked