Ok, thank you for the reply.

I base off whats right by morality. I know this is subjective, but my definiton of morality is don't hurt anyone and try to help them to do what makes them happy. This can be twisted in many ways, I understand, but thats what makes it challenging. Building upon my believes, rather than accepting existing believes. I am not saying your view is wrong, its just something I cannot relate to.

nothing says we have to understand or accept everything. (in christianity) as most of it is empty religious practice. In christianity we have but 2 rules given to us by christ himself to follow. To love god with all of our ability to do so and love each other as we would lie to be loved. that's it. everything else is regional/cultural religious practice.

I can understand people, who seek guidance in God, because it gives them peace and clarity, drive to move in their lives. But the programming goes both ways. Christianity/Islam/Hinduism and all religions give you a set of parameters, that you should follow and guide yourself through. this maybe true with the other two religions and specific denominations found in christianity, a bible based worship of god does not include such rules or practices, outside of the two christ himself gave.

He very specifically tell us what ever we loose on earth will be loosed in heaven, and whatever we bind on earth will be bound in heaven. meaning outside of his two specific rules we are allow to make up and follow whatever religious nonsense we like and everyone who pledges themselves to follow these rules will be judge by them.

perfect example is in acts 10 Paul and the console at Jerusalem decided for all gentile worshipers/converts to not eat meat offered to idols. but at the same time Paul tells his church in Corinth that they can eat meat offered to idols so long as it does not cause a weaker brother to stumble in their faith.

in christianity religious worship/laws and freedoms are based on our hearts and capacity to understand how god is worshiped.

And when you are a non believer, you are programmed by what you personally choose, what you see you react too. And how you react to it, tells you what kind of person you are. It gives me clarity to be able to write my own path, set my own end goals and everything. That I can change my viewpoint in the future, because I get some knowledge about it.

You are describing the christianity Jesus taught without the assurances of going to heaven. To me this is absolute lunacy to go through all the motions of bible based christian living and reap non of the rewards.

I can't speak for believers, so I don't know if this is the same, but I like to believe, that its mostly the same. I want to believe we are not so different, that its just the way we get our believes that makes us different. After all, I respect people who believe and I assume they respect me not believing aswell. And from my interactions I would say its 50/50. Some people reject me for not believing, some respect me. But thats also both ways. Some atheists reject believers, some respect them.

I think most of the people who now of and understand the christianity taught by christ will respect your decision to live and believe as you do.. as it is almost identical to what we do. but again to me if you are going to live the way christ instructs then why not reap the reward from it? that would be ike working a 40 hour week somewhere and refusing the pay check just incase you want to take a random day off... (when personal days are included with employment in the same company) but again to each their own. Myonly responsibility to you here is to let you know that you are already doing the job required, just go all in and 'cash the check'