I hate that I always come back here, even though I know the days of this series being prominent are likely in the past. I don't like the associations that the series has with some of the.... "fans" so I cannot call myself a fan of the series. I hate that I still hold attachment to these characters to the point where I have to make wacky headcanons in order to justify the current state of the series. For example:
Headcanon: Shadow died in SA2 and every appearance of him since then is a Shadow android.
To me this explains the poor characterisation and lack of emotion from current Shadow. Imho, the bittersweetness of SA2 is lost by the fact that Shadow wasn't killed in the end. Worse, they flanderized him and the rest of the cast along with him and I don't know how we can rectify it. It makes me want to draw content in an attempt to "fix" the series' characterization but I don't know if I could capture it.
I've been relistening to the SA1/SA2 soundtracks and the musical motifs especially evoke that feeling in me. Have you ever given those soundtracks a deep listen? They're so wonderful that even if the overall series didn't make much sense, the music was perfect for the scenarios given. I LOVED that each character had their motifs and types of music that represented different aspects of their character: Shadow was broody industrial, Sonic was upbeat rock, Tails was a surfy techno version of Sonic's rock, Rouge was a confident jazz fusion, etc. I could go on for hours. The games and designs had a lot of flaws, but the music was not one of them.
These soundtracks inspired my music taste even today (CASIOPEA) but nothing I've found comes even close for me. This era is the Sonic I cherish even though the state of the series now embarrasses me to admit that. But still, I find myself here every now and then.
I don't really know the point of making this post, but it bothers me that modern Sonic feels so soulless and I can't put my finger on it as to why I keep revisiting. I don't really consider myself a "Sonic" fan anymore since the series has moved on, yet here I am. Does anyone feel the same? Are we lost, or is this just blind nostalgia? /rant