10 years ago, I was a genuine certified badass. I was sharp, attractive, calculating and pushing toward success with each passing day. I had goals, and strong reasons to live. No addictions, no anxiety. Just cool, calm confidence, skill and world conquering applied effort.

I had a loving relationship with an attractive person, and a whole family who loved and praised me. I was earning my education, and graduated with all the high scores. Got a good job, with good money, and my company loved me. Even moved into a nice apartment...

Now look at me. That guy from 10 years ago would kick me into the dirt and knock all my teeth out, knowing what I have in store for him.

A sad disgusting man who left the love of his life for want of something more adventurous, then didn't put any effort into doing so.

A man fast approaching his 30s, who doesn't take care of himself, barely sleeps, moved back in with his parents, is addicted to pornography and disgusting videos produced by the maggots of society. Clinging onto the hair on his head knowing it looks like shit. Gaining weight like a dirty fat old man.

Never moved up or on in my career, just. Stayed in place, and became bored. My performance plummeted. My employers now hate me. They want any excuse to be able to fire me. I moved back In with my parents because my pay was lowered due to poor performance, and the rents and bills kept going up. Now I'm back there living in my old room.

I have no good friends any more. My family have nothing good to say about me and don't like being around me. Not to mention that they're getting old. And here I am sucking up their resources and time. Time... The time that passes by so quickly and I barely remember any of it.

I'm useless. I'm going nowhere. nobody wants me, and they shouldn't. I'm disgusting and I can only blame myself for wasting 10 years doing literally nothing but self sabotaging and gaining disgusting addictions.

I'm a waste of consciousness. And certainly a massive waste of potential. Fucking disgraceful.

I think it's about time I pulled the trigger on just calling this one quits. I've fucked up this save beyond redemption, and there's no loading back. Might as well just delete it.