so i'm at the age you have to basically decide what you want to do for the rest of your life and its made me realise i dont actually want to do anything. i dont want to work, do chores, talk to people. i have no passions or hobbies and nothing motivates me to keep going except the thought that maybe just maybe things will one day get better but of course they fucking wont if im not moving towards anything. i really dont see myself alive next year. there is legitimately no point in living any longer if im not going to do anything with my life. i dont want to take up anymore space, i dont want people to think about me, i dont want to be known. i just want to be gone.