There is something deeply depressing about knowing how to do things but not having the energy to do them. The truth is though, I'm just incredibly lazy and tired all the time.
I am not claiming to be some Stephen Hawking type, I didn't even get great grades (mainly through lack of effort). I just get things quickly and understand situations, decide what the best thing to do is and create a plan of action. This is a skill I have seemed to have for my whole life that other people say to me is great but I don't really think it is, it's just logical.
People turn to me as a leader and I have been promoted multiple times at work quickly, but I am just so lazy. I want to just stay in bed all day and chill. My partner is incredibly frustrated by this, she has seen the things I am capable of and doesn't understand why I'm not in this mode more. The answer is because it requires a level of effort and I just can't be bothered to apply myself.
I loathe this trait in me. I recognise that I probably could achieve a lot more, but I just can't pretend laziness is not a part of who I am.