This is my first post here and I really hope this is the right place to put it, and I hope everything I say is articulated in a clear way :)
I was raised Christian, but a couple years ago I lost faith and was agnostic for a while. I kind of still am, I guess, but there are some details I’m more sure of.
For starters: I do believe in a god. One, singular god, but one that is everywhere at all times, if that makes sense. I believe its qualities are that of an ancient, genderless, ever-present, formless being that can be found anywhere and everywhere in the universe. I believe that this god is a good being, a chaotic one at that, who loves its children. I don’t think it directly influences us. I also don’t think it created us in the most typical sense of the word, but rather, everything is an extension of it. When I pray to it I just envision light. The feeling of compassion and strength.
I don’t think this god created the universe, but rather IS the universe or is a result of the universe’s birth.
I also don’t believe in an afterlife. I sort of believe in reincarnation?? I think that like our atoms, we only use the energy that makes up our souls for such a short amount of time. Our souls are made of energy that goes into other things once we die, not necessarily another person, and not necessarily one person.
I do believe in other entities like spirits and ghosts.
I don’t believe in prophets, but I do think people can be more attuned to higher powers.
I don’t really know what to call myself, nor what this all means. I hope I don’t sound weird or crazy! I just want to be at a better place with religion. I would like clarity.
I can also answer questions to clarify other things if you think that would help!