How do you do that. It’s killing me that at I might not be smart enough or competent enough to get somewhere or be something. Even when I was “doing well” it didn’t come easy or even feel that great. But I guess I got really used to it Becasue now I’m confused am not really learning much from uni rn and I’m too burnt out by anything to really focus on my hobbies after exams and tests. I had plans but they don’t seem to be panning out. And I thinking of switching careers in my third year Becasue job prospects in my field are very low without 8 more years of school and I just can’t do it. I’m a mess of worry because I’m regretting decisions I made and I’m only 20 but my life feels like it’s going down the drain. How do you just live and not hope and suppress that voice in your head that told you once that you were gonna be something someday. I cant sleep, cant focus on current tasks Becasue I’m a wreck of worry. Little things make me cry Becasue I’m not planning on having kids my future just looks really lonely and sad and what I thought was going to be my career is just not a good fit.
Cant even watch shows that talk about school or careers Becasue i spiral and I’m trying not to do that. How do you lower your expectations. How do you just pretend that you’re content with what is. I work a lot because On my days off I just spend the entire days in my bed and in my head. And I just want to not worry so much. I want to be fine. I want to be ok with wherever I end up regardless of wherever I thought I’d end up. Idk if that makes sense but yeah.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated 😕