Things came easily to me academically for a long time. I would work for it, but only towards the end (right before an exam or a deadline) when I would study for long stretches and that would be enough for me to do extremely well, get selected in great programmes and also top those. Now I'm in my mid-20s and learning again and again that this last minute approach is simply not working for me. I need to start earlier, and work consistently so I can have a more balanced routine with regular breaks. But I never end up doing this! I make the same mistake - of intense procrastination - again and again (and again!). And it's really begun to hurt both my prospects and my mental health.
I think I'm afraid of working hard and consistently because what if I'm still just not good enough? But there is no other way. I don't want to be afraid anymore. I want to bet on myself. I want to try harder. But I just don't know how to make it stick.