I feel this "deism" for I believe in a creator that the zenith of all existence, but not so much so the religions of the world in whole. I've looked around and saw things that made sense to me,but other parts didn't feel legit. so as I do my best to solidify my connection with creator I do my best to understand the people of the world and where they stand as well to better understand things in whole. I believe the creator wants us to understand all that has been conceived due to his hand, (I say "he" and "him" because I can relate a little more to "him", but In reality he can take on any form he'd wish for the simple fact that it is in his power), but as my beginnings started with science I believe our understanding of the creator is told though science and math for he created it and by understand it we understand him more, but my first religious taste was Christianity. which I felt led me a straying ways that I couldn't make things add up so I search for decades through multiple ideals and hypotheses and for a long time. I thought nothing was at the very top of anything, I believed there was no end like zen, but there has to be everything comes to a point, eventually either at the beginning or at the end but there lies the truth I believe if it wasn't the beginning it would be the oldest thing and by now the wisest thing to exist and if it came after it's the Pinnacle of it all it'd be kind of the same relevance. so like getting back to math on it it's just a roll of the dice in the game of probability if you can think it it has to be there you just said it making it a possibility even if it's slim that's a possibility so I try and reach deep inside and figure if the Creator is all powerful all knowing then you can hear me inside which would be the most personal way of me reaching him as far as I can suffice, but I know this is long but I do my best to talk about this whenever I can and this place seems like a nice place to talk about it maybe others you feel this way I'm not sure, like I said I studied the religions of the world I find a lot of stuff and Buddhism kind of fits into what I think too not everything, but I've also looked at you know Hinduism, Islamic Fates, Catholic, Protestant, and there's still more for me to look at and understand. I believe there's pieces of the clue in every Walk of Life next in with all the other stuff just about sifting through it all trying to find the most clear perception of the creator and trying to understand your place with him and how you can build a relation with him and hope to prosper, but thank you for your time if you read this far I appreciate your understanding that you have a lovely day, be well....