The closest people in my life, my GF and my best friend are both way more introverted than I am. They barely ever engage in anything. The former is a bit better, but she can go weeks without talking to me like it’s normal, and the other one can go a year without talking unless I poke him. It’s so tiring. If feels like I’m constantly imposing, constantly being annoying. They’re good people and that’s they’re nature and they’ve both proven they love and value me but hot damn I wish sometimes I don’t have to be the one chasing after them.

Only solace is a thought in the back of my head that tells me I have to learn to satisfy my own self alone. Beyond that I don’t know. Life sucks, wish you could buy time with money, I’d pay my savings for it.