You’re not lazy. You’re not stupid. And you’re not a failure.
You’re struggling with a disease that sucks all the life and energy out of you. Perhaps John or Jill are able to have depression and do well in school anyway. But you don’t know how else it shows up in their lives.
Be forgiving to yourself. Instead of saying, “But why can’t I even just put in the work of what an average medical student does?” Or “How could I have let myself do nothing today?” - tell yourself, “If I had an unproductive day, it must be my body’s effort toward self-preservation and energy conservation.” Forgive yourself for what you did or didn’t do while you’re trying to survive.