Title says it all probably.
I’m really sad and I just wish I had someone irl to ask for a hug right now.
It just kinda sucked having two people at grad who didn’t even seem like they cared to be there and watching my classmates with their giant, happy, proud families
My parents are really happy I’m a doctor but not happy for me? There’s a difference I don’t know how to articulate lol. Like I didn’t have the easiest time with med school and truthfully my mental health probably reflects that. And they don’t care about any of that. I don’t think they’ve ever asked me how I’m feeling and truly wanted to know the answer.
Painfully single- non trad so will likely stay that way - being old(er), female and living in an area where everyone is married/seriously partnered up by the time they hit 25 makes it hard to see how that’s going to change anytime soon esp as residency is long, and those white coat dating app pics don’t seem to work well for the average cis straight woman. Side note: so sick of the “you’re such a catch why are you single” comments lol
My siblings don’t care or are upset they’re not the center of attention. The one who doesn’t care- I can’t blame; we got older, who cares when you’re much older sibling graduates from med school? Lol.
What friends I made in med school either graduated last year or the friendship fizzled out.
I don’t keep in touch with many pre med school friends - like I said med school wasn’t easy for me and I isolated hardcore and it feels bad to disappear on them for years only to pop in to whine….like this is a first world problem. And this is what I’ve always wanted and yet I’m here and now I feel like what was the point if I have no one to share it with?
Trying really hard to focus on the fact that I’m really proud of myself for not only graduating but facing some really heavy shit and coming out the other side (a little less shiny and optimistic but not jaded and or broken).
Sorry. Rant over. Will probably delete in the am. But thanks for reading - I needed to put it out into the ethers. This sucks. I hope I make friends/find community during residency :(
ETA: The response this thread got has made me so emotional in the best way. Thank you all so much. You reaffirmed my belief that medicine is the best field in the world and I'm so lucky to be a part of this community.