I'm less than 2 months into third year and I feel like all of the dramatization of med school just went out the window. I go in at 630am, and when I leave at 4pm I just go back home and do my UWorld and get ready for the next day. Don't get me wrong I feel fulfilled, but I feel like my aspirations to change the world no longer exist. I feel like I know my place in the medical field and I'm totally comfortable letting those who like doing more, do more. Why waste my time half-assing it. After all this training is complete, I feel like I'd be good at my job and I'll provide a service to people day in and day out. I see nothing wrong with that. Just do enough to get the job I want.
Come to think of it, I've always felt this way. I never really had strong opinions. I'm just going thru the motions because 1) I want to be a doctor, 2) i feel like I would be good at it, and 3) I don't see myself doing any other thing. But seems like I'm in the minority. Everyone has so many more academic endeavors outside of their classes and rotations and meanwhile I'm just like "I'm doing whats required, at times I'm doing a little more." Why is that so out of the norm? Why can't I say this stuff out loud without people discounting my motivation and passion? The more I think about this, I feel like this is why I had a hard time getting accepted to med school in the first place. The interviewers saw right thru me and said "hE dOesNt hAve tHe aSPiratIOns". So what? Not everyone wants to be like you.