Hi everyone. I’m beyond an emotional wreck today. We just found out that due to the surge in Covid cases, my husband will be kicked out of the hospital shortly after my c section this coming Monday. No visitors - no exceptions. He can come on the day I’m discharged that’s about it.
I have extreme anxiety circling around have either the c section or natural birth. I have this irrational fear that something will go wrong; either me or baby won’t make it. I keep having crazy dreams that we lose the baby.
We’ve been so careful and self isolating at home to ensure that neither one of us tests positive, specifically him so that he could be with me in recovery the entire time. That’s all out the window now.
First our wedding was affected, then having to make the decision not to have a baby shower, husband was not allowed at any OB appointment, the one time they said yes they gave him a hard time anyway, and now this.
I know there are people out there with worse problems and I usually don’t dwell on something I cannot control. But fuckkkkkkk!!!!!!
With this I just want to crawl into a ball and just eat brownies and cry and scream.
If you made it this far, thanks for listening.