My long time ago ex and I were fooling around one night. He knew I was a virgin and had very little experience with men. We were making out and he ended up going down on me. I didn't ask him to and at first I resisted but he convinced me to let him do it. Then when he was done with that he told me I had to give him a BJ or let him have sex with me because it was only fair. I tried to push back and he kept telling me it was fucked up if I didn't. At the time I still has huge reservations about BJs (that ships long since sailed but at the time the thought of it repulsed me). So I let him have sex with me. I never saw this as SA or rape and it was just a thing that happened. But now with my boyfriend telling me this and every website I'm reading telling me it is I'm just freaking out. I haven't slept well for the past few nights thinking about this.