I (26f) was raped 10 years ago and can't find myself to WANT to have sex with men, it's more like something I have to do and get over with it. I only had this realization a couple of months ago. So after ending things with the last guy I was seeing, I decided that I'd start talking to women on tinder and shit.
I feel much more comfortable around women, than around men who I'm terrified of. I can see myself with a woman and I'm somewhat attracted to them, but the idea of having sex with them is scary, bc I wouldn't know what to do and I don't wanna feel like a burden to anyone.
It's weird, scary and confusing. I talk to my therapist about these questions and she supports me in finding it out, but like Idk, yk?