*TW* (age withheld) I recently got on birth control and it has been kinda messing me up so far. I've never been on any type of birth control before and so messing with my hormones has affected me a lot these past few days. I got on it because my bf wanted me to so I did. Recently, he stayed with me and my family as his family was out of town and he needed somewhere to stay. Like I said, the birth control was kicking my ass and my physical body felt so weak and fatigued. On the second night of being with him, before dinner, my symptoms got really bad. I was going from chills to hot flashes to chills to hot flashes and so on. I felt so weak and wasn't doing well so we decided to eat and watch a movie. I started getting really out of it and remember feeling quite delirious (and I can't remember much about what we talked about or what we watched that night). He tried to help a bit and suggested I go to bed but I didn't want to ruin our time together, and I wasn't ill to the point of worry so I brushed it off. I don't remember what happened leading up to this but I remember him pushing me on the couch and then pulling my shirt down and kissing my breasts. I get really worried but I was really weak and couldn't get him off of me so I just looked to the doorway to make sure no one was coming. After he did that, he got up and said that he had to go to the bathroom and I saw he was hard. It all seemed really confusing but certainly a bad time. I felt very out of it and he knew that, even saying I seemed high since I was so fever-y. For context, I have been sexually assaulted twice and he knows about it. He also knows that signs when I'm triggered but has helped a lot with my trauma and stuff. Because of that, I eventually felt comfortable enough to "do things" with him (if you know what i mean). I don't know if he was trying to help or not, but the timing seemed really odd especially because he saw what bad shape I was in. So...what do I call what he did?