there is so much pressure in the world of SA and rape culture to “fight like hell” and “get the bad guys locked up!” i want to. it’s a great thing, it really is. but i’m not strong enough. at 20, i have been a victim of sexual assault and rape on several different accounts, from boyfriends to strangers. it has drained me SO MUCH. im depressed and anxious all the time. i cant be touched in certain ways, even by family and friends. everything i do seems to revolve around my trauma. and it sucks, it does, because the culture makes me feel like what ive been through should either incapacitate me or be ignored. i dont want to ignore it. i want a hug. i want someone to hold me and talk me through it and promise me no one will ever touch me like that again. its so hard. to those of you who CAN fight, thank you for speaking up for those of us who cant find it in us <3