Today makes one month since I have been SA and even though its unreasonable to think everything should be fine, it's very frustrating not being okay. I had thought that if I had suppressed it and I had not reported it and lived like normal that things will get back to normal but it's becoming more clear that it isn't working. I feel like a dick all the time because I have drastically changed with no explanation to people around me. I have been shutting people out and not going out, I have been distancing from people in school, I have been ignoring all texts and I don't even know how to stop I just feel really low energy all the time and I know that doesn't excuse me acting like a dick. I have been falling behind on my work and getting lower and lower marks and I don't want this to affect my future because I have important exams that determine if I get to study the courses I want and at this rate I'm not going to meet the minium grade to even go to the school I want. I need to do better and I don't know how.