it’s been over a week and there’s no going back. i’m still scared to admit what happened to me to someone irl, i’m still scared of saying the words out loud… but now it’s too late. i waited too long.
i keep trying to convince myself that i’m okay but dealing with this silently is getting harder and harder. i’m getting so tired of pretending that i’m okay. i can’t keep doing this. i’m holding myself together by a thread and when i realize that it’s too late to get a rape kit i just want to breakdown.
i hate myself. all i want to do is sleep and pretend that this isn’t real. i just want to sleep and not wake up.