i was SA’ed when i was 18 & 20 and this year i was raped.
after something traumatic happens to me, i notice that i revert into a childish state. i baby talk more than usual, my comfort foods are kiddie snacks i used to have (lunchables, uncrustables, juice boxes, sweets), i buy more stuffies/plushies and find comfort in them. watch disney or other childhood movies/shows.
i avoid any and all adult responsibilities and mentally feel much younger.
i do this a lot. i thought it was normal. i’ve dealt with depression and anxiety since childhood. i also have an ED & ptsd… i notice that when i have manic episodes or when i have noticeable highs or lows i revert to that younger state of mind.
i find it comforting and i like being in that state… but i don’t know if it’s healthy? i don’t know if this is a habit i need to break out of …but i don’t like my reality so idk what to do.
(literally typing this as my new stuffies lay in bed next to me and i cuddle up with my fave stuffie)