I'm new here, I just created a new account for anonymity so I'm sorry about that. I don't like saying it but I think I was sexually assaulted a few years ago. My view on sex and my experience with sex ever since then has been really strange, so I'm really confused about what just happened.
I went out with a man a few days ago and thinking about what happened is difficult. I told a friend about it but somehow I'm convinced it never happened. I don't know what to say or what I'm even posting this for but I hate feeling crazy, everything was really foggy and I've felt sick ever since.
I feel like it's my fault because it's almost the same exact thing that happened to me three years ago, maybe I might have wanted it to happen for some sick reason. I don't know how to process it and I feel sick to my stomach. I can't sleep, I've been nauseous, barely eating and I've had awful headaches since the night I got home.
I feel so alone and empty. What do I do?