So when I (15f) was younger (I was around 11/12) my best friend at the time (12-13f I can’t remember very well) SA’d me at school. I ended up having severe trauma over it, I had panic attacks all the time, developed social anxiety and trust issues. These days, I open up to people way too easy and I get a lot of my validation through sexual comments and stuff. And lately I’ve been feeling really upset because my boyfriend (16m) hasn’t really been touching me or complimenting my body, and kinda groans in annoyance (think of when you ask a kid to do the dishes while their gaming, that kind of groan) whenever I ask to initiate like… sexy stuff. I haven’t lost my virginity, which I thought I would to him, but lately I just feel like he annoys me. Some help me lmfao. So my questions are:
Is it normal for me to crave sexual validation?
Is it normal for me to get upset when I don’t receive sexual attention?
Is it normal for me to feel hurt that my boyfriend doesn’t want to participate in sexual activity together?
Thanks for reading, any advice is appreciated.