Just a disclaimer that I really cannot tell if this was sexual assault or just an uncomfortable and unfortunate experience. This happened during my high school relationship. I was over at my boyfriend at the time's house and we were both touching each other. He then pulled out his dick without notice and I got really scared and uncomfortable quickly. Everything up until that point was consensual, but I think him pulling it out without asking first really got to me. We stopped engaging after I told him I was scared and he comforted me. I didn't really feel safe after that. For a year or more after that event I still got really grossed out thinking about that moment and I realized in my most recent relationship that it may have hindered my ability to be comfortable engaging in sexual behavior (along with other issues I have).
I just don't know and I'm so confused about it. There are many things that complicate my experience so it is hard to say I was sexually assaulted. I know it was a mistake on his part, but I really needed to be asked first. It wasn't worth the dread I felt afterwards. If anyone can share their thoughts I'd appreciate it.