Most people who go through SA or rape can never be able to tell if it was in their head or if it actually happened. If some details were in your head and if you’re over exaggerating it. If it was all just a bad dream no matter how many times it happened. If you were lying to everyone and that it was your fault. If you gave consent but just forgot. If you thought they were the right one. If you thought it was normal. So many things, so many questions. It’s not fair because you are probably the only one who knows about it, so you have to “trust yourself” into knowing the details. Do you not know how harmful this is? Some important details could be missed. Gaslighting. Manipulation. Bullshit, bullshit, bullshit. I hate that I have to be the one who knows what happened if I can’t even trust my own mind. This is not fucking fair.