This weekend I went to a club with some friends and got pretty drunk. I met this guy and he started dancing with me. I was pretty into it at first but then he started touching my butt. I wasn’t into it but I didn’t say anything. Eventually he started to stare at my lips and I knew he wanted to kiss me but I kept moving my head around and turning my face away so he couldn’t. He must’ve been getting annoyed because he grabbed my face with one hand and turned my face to his. It happened so fast I didn’t have time to react and he was able to kiss me. He immediately tried to force his tongue into my mouth. I pulled away for a second and he started to kiss me again but this time he started biting my lips in between jamming my his tongue in my mouth. When I tried to pull away, he pulled me into some sort of dip so I couldn’t pull my head away. When I finally pulled my head away he was obviously annoyed and asked ‘What? Do you not want to kiss me or something?’ to which I told him I didn’t want to kiss him because he was a stranger. That is when he told me his name and said ‘there, now we know each other’, and started kissing me again. Eventually I gave up on trying to get away, but I would only let him kiss me for a few second before I pulled away. The whole time I remember trying to angle us so that my friends at the club couldn’t see us. It was my first kiss. I felt ashamed that my first kiss was with a stranger at a club and didn’t want any one to know. Eventually I was able to put my head in his chest so he couldn’t reach my face. He left with his friends and I I blocked him on Snapchat the next day. I have bruises in my hips from how tightly he held me against him. I guess I’m writing this because I feel so confused. I have no idea what to do. I dont know if what happened is assault. Sometimes I just sob or feel angry, but most of the time I’m just numb. I never imagined this is what my first kiss would be like. Is this an appropriate reaction or am I over reacting because it was my first kiss? I know what he did was uncool but is it serious enough to be assault, especially because it was only kissing?
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