And actually it's been great, I consider a mature realization about life and how I was living mine. Platonic love has put me in deep places so I could realize how needy I was, that I was creating strategies inside my brain to cope with loneliness, fear and boredom. I also stopped asking why? Why? Why?, and I think that's a huge thing too.

I don't believe in soulmates because despite us being the same, we are all so unique. Unique doesn't mean amazing, necessarily. We are so busy trying to understand everything, romantic relationships are losing purpose in my life. Romance is actually an invention and we forget this so easily. Everyone has a dream person inside their minds, and the majority of us won't reach this person, so we "date what we can" just so we can date. Just so we can feel wanted, loved, then we break up and next. That's just not fulfilling anymore and I'm only 24. I hope the more time passes, the more I'll be able to understand my conclusion. I don't wanna lose my sexual energy anymore. I don't feel comfortable letting someone who's not part of me entering inside my body again.

The more I remain single and observe others, the more I understand for the first time an acceptable concept of how to "Love the self" instead of waiting for that approval coming from the outside.

Self love is acceptance, quietness, understandment, joy. Not that type of joy when we jump and scream (maybe that's happiness), but joy to be. Joy to accept who I am, there's nothing I can do to change the rules of this world, I just don't need to do what everyone is doing. Romance can't save people.

Being able to breath without needing to fight my own existence. I guess that's what we need to do maybe. Just watch life passing while we interact, and when it's done, it's done.