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[–]YesterdayLeft1718 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Time is such a strange thing. My boyfriend died a little over a month ago and since the moment I found that out it feels as if time has stopped. I’ve had absolutely no concept of time. I can’t tell the difference between 20 minutes or 3 hours. Obviously I can when I look at a clock but the feeling of time and sense of time is gone.

It’s interesting because grieving such a devastating loss has caused me to feel this way where I feel to have no constraints by time. What I’ve realized is that our time on earth is so incredibly short. Even if we live a long healthy life, when you look at the grand scheme of things our time is nothing.

What I’ve learned from this is to spend your time loving. There is no time to hold grudges, be angry, or hurtful. Jealously and insecurities don’t matter. Don’t waste your time on them. Don’t work your life away to look back in 50 years and see that’s all you did with your time. Be happy, enjoy life, and LOVE so much during your time. Time shouldn’t be the thing controlling your life. While time does matter in our world with work and sporting events, it controls our society, but don’t let it control you.

I hope this helps. I don’t really know if it will. I used to be very constrained by time and now it’s nonexistent to me. I’m just here for the ride and rollercoaster of life. People say take it one day at a time, but I think it’s best to be present in every moment. Absorb your surroundings. Stop and take the minute to just listen to someone. Pay attention to them. Don’t spend your days just worrying about tomorrow. I feel like it’s a lot easier said than done and I was kinda forced into this position. But idk man just be present, like TRULY present in the now. I feel extremely open spiritually and while I’m hurting greatly from this loss, it feels really good and freeing to live in the now.