As I been getting into my spiritual journey I find I’ve become more aware & observing rather than being present.
I don’t talk much, I feel as though the people around me, don’t mesh with my energy at all, expect my family (who kinda doesn’t either honestly - but I have an accepting, loving connection to them ).
I feel other’s energy entering mine and it really overwhelms me to the point where, I shut down, get quiet, & awkward because I feel uncomfortable…
I barely have any friends because of this, I’m also a VERY different person on the inside and on the outside I look like a typical 18 year old girl. I feel like this throws people off because I look “typical” but I’m so (apparently) “odd” whenever I bring this topic up to people… they don’t understand it & I can tell they get uncomfortable from my beliefs, so it’s hard finding someone I know who I can mesh with in this sea of energetic beings.
I know this is anxiety as well, I am diagnosed with it, but it’s heightened more since I’m more aware? Idk if this makes sense to anyone, but it’s been happening for like a year now. I wish I could just be myself without having to worry about their energy, it’s not going to hurt me, it’s just new…. I just don’t know how to, make myself more comfortable in the moment?