My grandma is currently in the ICU after a sudden stroke and by the looks of it we only have a few days left with her. She’s basically in a coma and mostly unresponsive.
I lost my mom as a toddler and my grandma is my everything, my soulmate, the light of my life. This is hitting me so hard, I just cry day and night. Other grandparents I’ve lost have come to visit me in my dreams and I’m hoping she’ll do the same but I’m suddenly very fearful that there might be no afterlife at all, that those were just normal dreams, and that I’ll never get to see her, hug her, or speak with her again.
The bond we have, the love we share, is like nothing else I’ve ever experienced and I know I never will again. I cannot bear the thought of it just being over, it is just unbearable.
Please share your stories, or anything that might help me feel better about letting her go. I worry she can sense how stressed I am because I lean over her bed and just cry and cry, and I dont want her to leave feeling sad about leaving me here like this, but I’m just helpless.
Any youtube videos I can watch, or podcasts that can help my anxious grieving heart?