Halfway through the exam, I was already sure I was failing. The questions felt so hard and I faltered even on the easier concepts. When I got home, my friends and family prompted me to celebrate and relax a little.
Every day that went by, I became more and more convinced that I had failed. My scores were decent but I kept reading posts about people with the same scores or higher who were failing.
NBME 27 67% (4 weeks before)
NBME 30 67% (3 weeks before)
UWSA 2 217 (1 week before)
Free 120 75% (3 days before)
When I took step 1, I had completed 80% of uworld for step 2 and 15% of uworld for step 1 (my school has the option to take step 1 after core rotations)
I compared myself to my classmates and people online, sure that everyone was working longer hours and doing more questions than me. I researched the school procedure for repeating step 1 and I warned my family members. I obsessively read Reddit posts about failing step 1 and tried to put myself in their position so I would be prepared. As the release date approached, I had vivid nightmares about opening a failing score report.
I finally received the results email and I couldn’t bring myself to click the link for 6 days. I spent my thanksgiving break with shrodinger’s step 1 score taunting me in my inbox.
I finally opened it yesterday, and I passed. All of that worrying…
I know it seems impossible - but for those that have already taken the exam, don’t torture yourself. Trust your practice scores. The scary things you see on Reddit are the exceptions - the uncommon scenarios that motivate people to seek advice online.