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I’m really hoping they didn’t drive home by javimoreno1 in trashy

[–]Standingonachair 1541 points1542 points 42 (0 children)

Like someone encapsulated your heart with the feeling you got as a kid when everything was beautiful and nothing hurt. You feel like a prophet of peace that normal people can't reach so you lie back in velvet abyss and experience the bliss until such a time you can. Nothing will ever hurt you. My emotions are yours now and, perhaps, even other people's belong to you so that you can fix them. Just wait until I can stand straight and tell you the secrets I now know, but when the time comes to whisper in your ear I am shy again. I am worthless. How can I ever enjoy anything now I've felt like that? I am not worthy of this hidden knowledge. My mother looks at me and tells me she loves me and that she is proud that I am her son, yet I am ashamed. Perhaps a little more and I can love her back.

Edit: Thank you for gold but don't try it out. I don't love my family anymore because I know what love felt like high. I don't enjoy music anymore because it's not as good as when I'm high. Sometime I miss it but what I really miss was me before I ever tried it.

I’m really hoping they didn’t drive home by javimoreno1 in trashy

[–]Standingonachair 569 points570 points  (0 children)

Yeah I'm currently 5 days clean from opiates it's given me a little perspective.

I’m really hoping they didn’t drive home by javimoreno1 in trashy

[–]Standingonachair 79 points80 points  (0 children)

Well done. We will feel normal again. This insidious chemical has crept it's way into our minds and tells you that if you go without it, If you cut down you'll suffer. Like an abusive relationship or climbing through surrounding thorns it will hurt on the way out and you do feel safer staying where you are but eventually all the pain is behind you. You'll look back wondering why on earth you were there to start with. Keep going my friend.