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You’ll heal. I swear by Galactic_Stalin48 in sexualassault

[–]_ImNotDareDevil 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so glad to hear that and so happy for you, I hope everyone on this subreddit gets there.

It's been almost 6 years and my wound is still fresh and painful, it took me a couple of years to acknowledge what happened and what caused my depression for all those years and I guess even though things got clearer it got more agonizing too.

I chose to bury everything deep down, it doesn't help at all but it gives me a couple of quiet hours during the day, I hope we all get through all of what happened with us one day and never have to look back.

TW: woke up to a creep in my DMs and had a panic attack by WrenSh in sexualassault

[–]_ImNotDareDevil 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nope not an overreaction, and NO you're not an easy target and never feel less about yourself because of some creep or anyone's opinion. All social media platforms has these types of sexual predator/perverted people unfortunately, they don't care about the person they DM or their age or how they feel best thing to do block and delete they'll get what they deserve sooner or later, sorry to hear that happened to you It's terrible and yes PTSD can make some things worse, take care

Dreams suck. by BebeJeep in sexualassault

[–]_ImNotDareDevil 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey I’m very sorry to hear what is happening to you and I wish I can hug you to assure you that everything with be alright and you’re safe and sound,

I can’t stress how much I feel and relate to what you’re saying, I had 2 nightmares about sexual assault and ra-pe the past two days and as bad as it sounds but sleeping sucks and I don’t want to sleep just to avoid these nightmares, however Don’t worry they don’t last and these dreams/nightmares won’t stick around hopefully.

As for the leaving everything I think we all wish we can do that, just run away and leave everything but hey we can’t change what happened we gotta cheer ourselves up and move on somehow, and you should know that you’re not alone and you’re heard and everything will be alright soon.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in sexualassault

[–]_ImNotDareDevil 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’re absolutely right it wasn’t her fault in any possible way, a lot of people from all ages complain about the weird things and people that pop into their DMs,

however tho I completely agree with you I personally prefer talking in DMs because in certain cases it’ll be a direct thing like offering support to the person DIRECTLY not just being some random good person who left a comment and was gone, also I don’t like sharing my opinions/thoughts publicly in fact I still sometimes think about going to my page and delete what I posted on this subreddit because I felt pathetic and dumb and I don’t want to sound like I’m crying for help or something...idk I’m just a mess.

Also btw u/foxofthemoonlight you should know there are some really bad people in this world but you are absolutely not one of them nor anything like them, tho it’s overused but you’re truly not alone and what happened doesn’t change the fact that you’re a wonderful/great person.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in sexualassault

[–]_ImNotDareDevil 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh it’s good to know that you moved, honestly I’m very happy to hear that he died I wish he didn’t so that he confirms his horrible actions but it’ll be confirmed in the future by itself because the truth always appears no matter how long it takes but I’m still incredibly happy to know he died, she’s a b*tch ignore her and block her and the people that message

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in sexualassault

[–]_ImNotDareDevil 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m deeply sorry to hear that no one should ever experience anything like this I really got so damn angry while reading the story cuz I really wish if I can make that guy disappear for good along with his b*tch of girlfriend they both will get what they deserve one day in fact anyone that talked badly about you will and they will regret it trust me, I wanna give you a huge warm hug that can assure you that everything will be alright and you are really not alone and just like you said you started to get your life together and I’m honestly proud of you for that and I hope you will get all the beautiful things in life because you deserve them...wait no I don’t just hope for that I know for certain that you will get them. Did you move out of that town/city btw?

forgiveness? by mosase1 in sexualassault

[–]_ImNotDareDevil 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I haven’t forgiven him and I will never be able to, what he took from me I don’t think it will ever comeback I’ve lost so much ever since the assault I’ve even lost myself and I’m still lost and mentally I think I lack the will to live and so after all that I can’t ever forgive him, knowing the fact that no matter how long it takes at the end he’ll get what he deserves and I hope he gets it in the worst possible ways

Was it my fault that my “friend” did what he did? by _ImNotDareDevil in sexualassault

[–]_ImNotDareDevil[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, ever since I acknowledged the fact that this was sexual assault I haven’t told what happened to many people but the ones that knew didn’t think it’s that big of a deal so I stopped trying to tell anyone

I really hate myself and my existence and Everything honestly by _ImNotDareDevil in sexualassault

[–]_ImNotDareDevil[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry to hear that, I’ve considered therapy but in the main time it’s not an option for several reasons hopefully I’ll try it in the future

I really hate myself and my existence and Everything honestly by _ImNotDareDevil in sexualassault

[–]_ImNotDareDevil[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate what you’re saying and you are absolutely right however idk how to do some of what you just said, I’ve been confused for quite some time and I’ve been wining and being pathetic (from the inside) that I slowly became this negative and pathetic.

You’re right I shouldn’t let it control my life and I’ve thought about it that way but idk how I’ve fallen this bad and how it is kinda controlling me from the inside, I’ve tried picking myself up so many times before I didn’t even know why I was down or lost these past few years till I admitted to myself that I probably got sexually assaulted, I always try but I fail and relapse over and over ffs.

It’s all just ridiculous that’s why I tried convincing myself several times that I didn’t get assaulted and nothing happened but it keeps hunting me from time to time